hmm the last blog..lol sigh.. we sorted it out a few minutes after i posted the blog..sigh i still love him =( zzz...


anyways, i would like to tell u all that i have read my 3rd book for this year! hahaha wooot! =D dan brown's deception point! hehehe hmmms..it wasnt nearly as good as the other two.. it was very scientific and confusing rofls but yeah in the end..it got exciting, everything started to make sense and you get hooked to finish it and find out who been decieving everyone! lols =P


lalala..zzz im tired and bored..nothing to do here.. i should really finish my egypt project..its been a while and im leavin here soon..sighhhhh


oMG i forgot to tel!!.. it the first time in 3 years that i am under 60kg!!! LOL im 58kg!!! wTFFF LOLS i havnt been this light since....3 years ago LOL hahahahahhaha


bleh anyways going blur..i dont know waht to rite now so ... iwl bbl =)


- dreamer

sigh i really fukd things up this time..sigh..
ger came online just then sigh and then i chukd a bitch at him sigh coz.. he sed some shit like.. no net = no roger.. sigh which is totally bs..and not him coz.. he was the one who used to be like.. err dont go online..coz i used to be on all the time! zz sigh and he got angry when i wanted to use the net or socialized "too much" sighh bleh and now hes changed soo much.. he been going out soo much and made new friends sighs and now he online soo much nows sobs.. and it just not him..and sorry if i miss him too much blehh sigh im dying and i want him bakk arggh! its not as easy as i thought it would be.. not like i thought it be easy..sigh but like.. after the past two months i told myself that i finally gota do it and like clear shit up.... zzz but like sighh i duno..i lost it just then.. i know it probably the wrong thing to do and my chances now to get him bak is like.. shit all prob? sighhh blehh i know i should say sorry sigh ..i will.. sooon =/ sometime ..lol sighs.. i duno...zzz

arghhhhhhhhh im dying here =( iv reali never felt like any of this before.. for anyone sigh.. and now this guy is gone...sobs.. arghhhhhh im dying really bad...zzz =( *tears*
i gues i can only hope.. sigh

if only huh? sigh fuk hollywood man..it is all bs and fairytales that never come true in real life sighs ..sobs.. fkn gets u thinkn and get ur hopes up that miricals could actually happen sigh..but ir really doesnt..at all =( sighh

blehh i should stop complaining..zzz nowun cares anyway..sobs... sigh

sigh sigh sigh bleh bleh bleh...

i shall blog more later ...sobx!!

- broken heart

i realise that i never got to finish off my bloggin the last time i was here hahah =/ sorry zzz

anyways, i dont remember much of what happend that day.. hmms i only know that i had to wake up hela early for some stoopid antique furniture shop thing (which was extremely small and random and EXPENSIVE LOL) sigh anyways.. hahahah

whats been happening the past few days? hrmm same ol same ol..rofls seriously nothing much at all sighs =/ been gettin really fattty hahaha X_x just cant seem to stop eating all the junk food! and i got soo lazy this week, i think i onli went to the gym once! rofls =X hahah *shush*

zzz right now im playing solitare showdown on msn rofls so it might take a while for me to finish this blog rofl and hopefully i end up finishing it too hahah =X zzzz

hmm i watched a random movie a few hours ago.it was such a sweet movie!
IF ONLY there were guys like that (not because of the whole complicated part of the movie) but like.. awww he was soo sweeet.. i cried!!! hahah sighhhs

this movie is about a couple who arent doing tooo well.. the guy is a bit too caught up in his work and doesnt want to meet her parents yet.. =/ and she reli loves him like..alot rofls and so obviously she is very disappointed and all sad, and eventually breaks up with him...
hmm she gets in a car..and an accident occurs and she ends up dying.. he obviously feels terrible coz he really loves her tooo but hes been holding back.. sigh

anyways, he wakes up the next morning and realises taht.. that day hasnt happend yet and she wasnt dead..it was all a dream..or a vision of some sort...and in fact he had one more chance, one day, to prove and show her that he really does love and appreciate her! =)

so obviously he tries to avoid her dying but then realises that the accident will happen no matter what.. and he just had the last day left to show her how much he loved her..! sigh..
so obviously their day was "perfect" sigh and it was soo sweet..and he told her how much he loved her and stuff !! sighhhs...

yeahh... in the end, when the accident happened.. it was he who died and protected her from the crash..siiighhh

argh it was sweet..u hav to watch to understand..and all the things that he did for her..sigh the braclet and all..argghh sobs..
it suks lol..zzzz

anyways, the main actors;Paul Nicholls as IanJennifer Love Hewitt as Samantha

lalala i shall post this blog first and continue later possibly ^^

- dreamer

well, since i cant use the net at night anymore..sobs.. coz if u know me, u know my current..very sad situation sigh..no msn past like 12 or something sigh soo sad hahahah =(
so this be something i wrote down last night in bed.. which i planned to write here to u all lols =/ haha

zzz..

anyways, for some reason last night i couldnt sleep at all.. i literally spent 3 hours trying to sleep.. just tossing and turning in my bed all night sighs.. i duno whuy.. zzz sighs.. it wasnt like hot or cold or anything.. the temperature was okkki dokii lols but i duno? before i got to bed i was feeling a bit drowzy..so tahts goood! lols i thought that i could just ko straight away.. but then after a while i couldnt get to sleep so i turned on my side lamp and started to do my "egypt" project.

Its a little journal/file thing that i creating for my family holiday in egypt this year. last year i made another one, but in a notebook, about my holiday in europe! =) kinda like a scrapbook..but this years one is more like a file.. hrmmm i dont reli like it very much lol.. last years one was much nicer sigh.. this one isnt very..personalised? coz i ended up typing stuff out and just sticking things in a file lol =/ zzz last years i actually got alot of magazine clippings and tour guide books and stuff and put together many random pictures and maps and stuff ^^ hehehe and i did all the writing by hand..sighhh

anyways, i did the egypt thing for a little while and the light by my side made my eye go a bit more tired so i thoguht .. ok i better sleep now since in the morning i had to be up by 8am latest.. coz today we went to some furniture thing =/ i duno zzz..boring! lol hahahah

lala..yah so i tried to sleep again..sigh.. but after lying in my bed for about 10 mins or so i realised that this too wasnt working lols..and so i put my music on and listend to my mp3... hmm i listened to music for hmm nearly 2 hours LOL! =X zzzz but then STILL couldnt sleep! raaaar

so then i turned the lamp back on again rofls and then started reading my next book on my list of 10! raar lol hahahah deception point - dan brown!.. i shall talk about it later lah in another blog.. anyways.. i think i read for abotu nearly an hour..til it was a bit past 3.. zz then i tried to sleep again ahahahha =/ siighhh soo retarded... it was reli blehhh last night sighhhh

havnt got enough sleeep sighhh coz i woke up at about 7am this mornign too coz of my brothers alarm for school..! sighhh every weekday i wake up at least twice lol =/ zzz how fun huh? hahah

sighh last night was retarded.. i couldnt stop thinkn about ..random stuff and my ger..sigh i miss him =( it suks anal balls lol =X zzz i wonder how things will be like when i get back..sighs..
i been thinkn about it alot.. it gona be very weird and differnt =/ lols coz.. and this is just reminicing okkkkk, dont nagg at me =/ raaar, if u dont like it then i suggest u go click the "x" on the top right hand corner of your screeen! lols sighs.. and if i dont make sense, too BaD XP hahaha
sighh it be very interesting and different being single this year..coz i havnt been single in two years.. (well nearly two years- our "two year" anniversary is in hmmm 5 days from today) sighhh.. aiyah, anyways.. im so used to being with him.. we practically lived togetehr and like.. did everything together like a "married retarded couple" lols =X hahahah retarded coz.. i am retarded and he is too >____<" zzz lols.. no comment..

sigh but yeah.. we went grocery shopping toghther, went to and from uni together.. had dinners together sighh omgosh it suks soo bad lol =( hahahaha and then there are the friends.. =/ i duno how to explain it all sighs..but it reli suks lol =/ zzzz

i know some of u might be like.. dw uwl get on and stuff and move on and u might onli miss having someoene and someone else could prob make u feel that special too and blah bleh! lol yesss iv heard it all before..u dont need to remind me! X_x zzz.. im a person who thinks..ALOT lols =X i think things through in my head over and over and over before i do it lol =X trust me on that one! >___< zzz.. sometimes its not good..sigh ok most times it prob not good..lol it makes one indecisive sigh and annoying? rofls =X lol alalla...

yeah, anyways.. i do alot of thinkn.. sigh.. i think about how one thing can lead to another and so on and so forth..and i think about all the options and possibilities before i actually do it..sigh =X hahaha yes, i am retarded..u can see it now huh! =P hahahaha zzzz

blah

bleh

anyways... i think i shall stop writting shit here now.. and post it.. i will post another blog right after this one..and after my coffeee =P hahahaha ^^ *zzZzzz*

hopefully tongiht i can sleeep....sighhh
im soo tired!!!!

- dreamer

second post for today.. lols..

hmmm, today i really didnt do much at all lols.. iv only been sitting here on my ass in front of this computer lol.. looking at photos, random blog skins and sites, and i just created a yahoo email lol =/ hahahahah

i created this new email for photos lah lol =P heheheh.. coz since my multiply site is a bit.. hrmmm.. immature? =/ hahaha and old..and most of the time wont load for me..sigh.. i dont know what it is with these sites? the photos and blogging ones =( it never seems to work for me sighhh =( sobs.. hahaha

anyways, hopefully this new site will be ok.. it on flickr, like the other site i created the otehr night for my family photos =) hrmm but yesss.. i making another one coz rofls.. hmm family and personal serene stuff should not be put together righT? hahahah X_x

but hrmm dont worry there wont be much of that random shit like my multiply used to have hahaha =/ wel i dont think there will be..X_x iv hyped down alot since those days! lols a new person! hahah sighs.. all thanks to the boy who left me after two years.. sighhh how depressing! lols

no, sorry im not going to spill anything out to anyone yet hahahaha =/ sigh.. hmm i guess i can say that he is one of the bestest persons iv met in my life sigh and eventho we arent together anymore..sigh i still love him..>___< bleh lol sigh *tear*
hmmms, i was with him for two years.. and i miss him soo much lol sigh.. hes taught me alot i guess.. and has changed me into.. hmm a better person..!? haha wel i guess not as crazy and stupid as before... hmmmm

learn from your mistakes..

haha sigh.. i dont know what is happening right now.. but i think im going to give it one more shot.. and if it doesnt work.. then..hmm lol

"all endings is also a beginning. we just dont know it yet"

HEYYY lol.. its the new year, time for a new blog yeaH? hahaha

i think this be the 4th blog that iv attempted to get started.. but they alwasie seem to end hahaha sighs.. sorry =x rofls.. i shall try and keep this one going this year =P

Anyways, happy new year to all who is reading! i hope that ur year as well as mine, be better than the last! alot better please! LOLs X_x" and i hope that blogger doesnt stuff up on me like it did last time thus causing me to stop blogging......LOL hahahahah ^^

hrmmms, new year resolutions for this year.. hrmmms..
theres quite a few.. i dont think i shall list them all up tho.. but i will list one now..
i have decided, that this year i must read 10 books..! lol ok.. to some.. or maybe most of u.. maybe all? =X zzzz this might be an easy task! lol but.. for me.. hrmmm..
if u know serene, she doesnt really read hahahah within a year i think i read only one book! last year i read one a half tho? hahahah x_X ok, nothing to be proud of i know lol =X hahaha
anywways, this year b different! im really going to do it ! and iv already done two!! heheh =D yay!!

ok dont laugh, but the first book for this year was the Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown! ok, now eveyrone is laughing! i can feel it! zzz hahaha just coz im slow and havnt read the book yet! sigh.. i planned to read it last year actually, but my dad wanted to read it first so i let him have it.. and we dont live in the same country so i couldnt really get the book off him and he didnt even end up finishing the book! hes still only on chapter 26 ok! lol hahahaha

anyways, i came here for my annual "holiday" and i watched the movie! ok stfu! lol i planned to read the book and watch the movie at around the same time ok! rofls that was my planN! hahaha i plan alot, i think alot! leave me alone..sighs =(

anyways, i watched the movie first becasue i heard that the movie was terrible compared to the boook!.. which is usually tru! lols.. so after watchin the movie which i found was ok.. it really wasnt too bad.. i read the book! =) and i finished it within hmm about 3 days in total? thats ok righT? >_< zzz

the book is definately nicer! it explains alot! =) but the movie helpd alot too because while i read it, it gave me images in my mind about what happend in the movie.. coz it not like the book and the movie is very differnt.. they are similar..in a way lol.. zzz im sure i dont need to explain any of this to anyone reading anyway coz they probably read and watched it already and thinkt hat im boring! hheheh yay =) sighhs

yup, wel da vinci is done! i think that it was hmmmm not as good as angels and demons tho! i lke that book alot.. its like one of them books which u dont want to put down coz it soo exciting ^^ hahaha.. yea, but overall da vinci was quite the nice =) and i enjoied it very muchies ^____^

okii... one book down, 9 more to go! lols

last night, becasue i got kikd off the internet coz i was making too much noise and my mother couldnt sleep! zzz sigh.. i went to bed and started reading another book which i had bought abiout 2 years ago rofls.. but i never found the time to read it and i lent it to my brother to read..

Five people you meet in Heaven by Mitch ALbom! wow this book is reli wowww! i hav never cried soo much just becasue of a book! lols hahahah i never knew that a book could make me cry in the first place lols hahahah it was trully very touching and just simply beautiful!

its about a man who dies and meets .. 5 important people in his life who has passed away before him!.. the story started at the end becasue, at the end.. it is just the beginning! hahahah =D
wow..sighhhh

i dont know how to explain it but it reli was great! =) very touching and just wow jhahahah sighh
i suggest that people read this book! along with tuesdays with m orrie! hahaha that book is very n ice tooo! =D hehehe go mitch ! make more books like this =P hehehehhe
i like these books, the ones about life and random things u learn about life.. how much we should appreciate what we have and all.. sigh

maybe i should have read the books when i they were bought for me two years ago sigh.. maybe i would still have my boyfriend lol sigh.. two years....

sigh, wel that is another story taht i MIGHT share with u all another time in another blog =) hahaha zzz i shall think about it ^^

lalalala...

oki i tink that went well for my first blog for 2o07! hahaha =P yayy.. *cheeers* i shall show eva now hahahahaha.. she will be proud =X zzz sigh im bored >_<

- dreamer

serenery

i believe that the simple things in life are always the most important
that we should never take the people around us for-granted.
life is never long enough, and is an unexpected journey.
and every obstacle are just life's tests to shape who we are,
that mistakes aren't "mistakes" but learning blocks to better ourselves.
i believe you have to take risks - to live life to the fullest and make the most of what we have.
because we only live once.

~ my goal of book reading still stands this year haha and so now i have decided to just list all the books iv been reading and read
> The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom
> Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom
> My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult
> Vanishing Acts - Jodi Picoult
> The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
> Deception Point - Dan Brown
> Highway Guitar Rose - Bridget Lowry
> The Pelican Brief - John Grisham
> Adrian Mole: The Wilderness Years - Sue Townsend
> For One Last Day - Mitch Albom
> Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - JK Rowlings
> Bridget Jone's Diary [the first one]
- Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince - JK Rowlings
- Singletini - Amanda Trimble
- Falling Blossom - Peter Pagnamenta and Momoko Williams
- The Deep End of the Ocean - i shall getbak to u lol
- Ugly - Constance Briscoe
- Simply Irresistible - Rachel Gibson

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