its been a while since i blogged..lols..i cant rmber wat the last blog was about..
i dont suppose i told u all about my very terrible mid sem mark for cfp? sighs..
wels..it was terrible..like iv never ever gotten so bad before terrible lols sighs hahaha

anyways.... it was all forgotten last friday.. as in two days ago ! when we went to cott beach =D hehehe *woot woot*
it was like perfect day hehehe..nice and sunny =D

it took us a while to set up the vball net tho..rofsl. like nearli an hour? haha =X coz firstly it was too high up and aarons net is juz..screwd lols =X

hmm but yea i was good lols..playd vball.. went swimming.. ok no not went swimming.. got thrown into the water..lol =/ no not reli thrown too.. more like TAKEN DOWN! zzz
jun hao tan!! sighs lol ahaha

hmm got taken down inda sand too lol..by dear jht! lols =/ zz soo immature that boy lols hahah =D

mmm ..yes.. i duno wat else to say about fri..lols jus that i was reli nice.. relaxing sigh..) sun sun hehehe.. fun fun !! =D

a full day of bumming.. no uni..no studying..nothing..juz bumming =) and relaxin in the sunn hehe good days~**

after that we went to nb to hav dinner too and bbt =D.. made them all go to korean kimchee house lols..opp tea fusion! lols X_x =P its yum i thought..but yeah not enough for soo many guys lols hahaha.. wasnt enough for me either =X lol...
but yummi..!! yes? sighs

then ended up bumming at jht house.. no ..mansion! lols =P hahah wata rich boi haha =D .. played some table tennis lols.. taught jh and col how to hula hoop rofsl.. hmmm.. started learning how to play chinese chess? hahah

hmmmmmmmm....

sry if i not makin sense..im gettin hyped over joe lol..eventho im not going tonight sighs lols...

tonight be the playas ball at metroz and my dear dear joe is going!! sigh.. why doesnt any of my friends know who joe is!!? lols.. hes the rnb singer..who sang stutter!! sighs..hes like.. omg joe! lols hahahaha blehhhhs

i wanted to see him reli bad.. but nowun wantd to go with me.. sigh onli rogers friens are goin..and i dont wana bumw ith thems lols =X blehhhs....

o wels.. sighs..

i wna see vin too but i dont think anyone wants to see him with me either!!!!
takin a photo with vin dieselL!!!!!!! sighsssssss =(
arghhhhhhhh


blehhhhh o wel.. iwl shuttup..im going crazy
i shud be doing cfp llols =x

bbyyyyyyyyyes

- dreamer

mannn i forgot to tell u guys about the bestest day of my week! lols NOT!
monday.. well actually i think friday is going to be a pretty bad day too..lols.. cfp exam.. dies.. that is going to be a super killer..like.. death to mee! sighs..

man i reli gta start gettin my shit together again..sighs.. iv alwasie been reli slak when it comes to studying.. but i know i am smart.. i mean, i made it into uwa.. witout reli studying for tee =/ that means i can be smarter if i werent so lazy and actually studied right? sighs hahaha =/ bleh

anyways, this blog isnt really about that lols...

im here to tell u about my very very bad monday!! lols...
it started on sunday night.. coz i couldnt sleep at all for some reason! sighs.. i got off the fone and was in bed at 1am..but i didnt get to sleep until 3.30ish...
my back was killing me and i kept coughing.. and for two hours and a bit i kept rolling around tryin to get comfy and go to fkn slp! lols..but mannnn it was soo hardd! ..in the end i rmber i took a panadol coz my back was really killing me and i just wanted to sleeep soo bad sighs hhahaha

anyways..that must hav definately contributed to my reli bad bad day! lols...

have u ever had one of them days..where nothing goes right! everything that you planned to do and get done..just never gets done..coz everything along the way goes wrong and it jus screws up your whole day!!??

hahaha well i had one of them days...

i planned that day to get alot of study done and to do all my tutes so that i could jus concentrate on cfp exam !! sighs.. but then coz of the lack of sleep the night before i couldnt get up by the time that i wanted to.. and so thus i couldnt catch the bus that i needed to catch to get to uni on time! lol blehhh

anyways.. i also thought that i had a meeting to attend at 2pm .. so i planned to get some shit done and hav lunch and all and then go to the meeting at 2 at the lib..
well, i got there early and waited for people to show up..

hmm waiting....

waiting.....

still waiting......

and i called them like 15 times! and NO ONE picked up! mannn i started to get pissed.. i had been waiting there for 30 mins alreadyy! all by myself.. and mannn think about how much study i could be gettin done!!
i had an assignemnt due in on tuesday too (the following day..if u guys arent following lols)

sighhhs....

so i gave up and i walked off towards the lab so that i could print off my stuff and finish off my assignment! as i was walkin there i bump into one of my group members and was like..OMG where were u!??! and then he was like..its at 4pm!!!!

IM LIKE....OMG!!!!! and then i felt the tears lols =X

OK no i dont cry for no reason! lols.. altho yes..sometimes, if u read my blog, i cry for him and its pretty no reasonish ! hahaaha..but..blehhh i dont juz break down in the middle of uni over a group meeting!! lols..X_X sighs

blehh i thinks its just coz im super stressed lately coz of the exam and then all the assignments piling up...quickly! lols.. and yeah the lack of sleep and nothing working out inda mornings...

so yeah i sat on the limestone and i had a liddol tear..and tried to calm downs
...then i msgd ger..coz he alredi knew i had a bad start coz..i msgd him earlier inda morning too lah lols =X hahaha =)

yeah and then i ended up crying..lols..u know how sometimes ppl say..."stop crying".. and then the opposite usually happens lols and u cry more hahaah =X o wels.. lols
but then after a while our convo went sour somehow and then we ended up gettin in a fight..and i dont even rember wat it was about..=X bleh it was jus stoopid adn then he hung up on me in the end!!! BLEH made me cry more lols...

so i went to be a girly girl..=X lols and i went to the toilets and cried for about 10mins... lol u know..iv never ever done that before..go to a toilet and juz cry lol =X hahaha.. its not me lols O_O hahahahah

sighs yeah anyways.. i got out and thens i met up with a friend coz i had to return sumtink to them.. i arranged before i started crying la lols.. and yeah so they came and i obviously started crying again lol sighs =X blehhhh... but that didnt last for too long.........i think lols hahah =X sighs...

anyways finally got off my ass and then went to print off the stuff for my assignment ... thens went to the group meetin at 4..=/ zz sighs.. that didnt even last for long..man it was pointless to go even blehhhh sighs....

anyways after that i was jus reli tired coz of all the crying.. and i went online for a bit.. and talkd to rogers again.. and it was all going good until we had another misunderstanding and then blehhhh he ended up tellin me to get lost and to not talk to him..so bleh wt the fuk.. that lead to me tearing =X zz sighs....

sighhhhhhhh..anyways i decided i couldnt take it at uni nemore.. no study for me..sigh.. so i took a walk up to jasmines house.. and it was nice walk i gues.. gota cry a bit witout ppl lookin at me lols.. and yeahh.. sighh

at jasmines we didnt do much..bummed around..watched tv.. simpsons.. fear factor!! lols =D hehehe then later she dropped me home while she went to baddy ...
at home.. roger called me and we talked again.. no more fighting lah i gues..
bt yeah it was sad.. i dno.. coz i was like.. bad dayy...
so i guess angry and sad.. and juz blehhhhhh lols....

sighhhh yeahh it all ended i guess when i went to slp? ROFLs

hahahah sighs.. hmm ilove him for being able to put up with my crap lol sigh.. the fights that we had that day were reli unnecessary.. sighs.. blehhhs sighs
duno...

i jus expct too much from him i gues..sighs.. but i cant anymore right coz hes not mine nemore..sighs (U) <-msn lols hahah

yeahh i mean like, if he were my bf..i wish that he would come down straight away and give me a hug and keep me company that night.. sighs....
coz he would b e the onli one who can really make me feel b etter..sighs and all i wanted to do was to see him and huggg himm sighs =(

bleh bleh how emo.. how depressing...

WATA SHIT DAY HUH? lol hahaahha

sucked coz i didnt slp til like 2am that night too..and then i had to wake up early to finish off my assignment =/ blehh sighs.. and i was late for class.. not late..i misssed it hahah =X zzz..

o wels.. life suks.. =X hahaha.. my life anyways...

and yeah, today i found out that i faiiled my exam..sighs.. i reali wished that i could hav jus passed tat one..sigs coz i knew that i wasnt gona be easy since i didnt relai go to lectures..and there was alot of lecture material in it sighs.. =(

blehhhh

o wels.. i guess it serves me right for b eing soo slak lately.. especialy this year.. sighs.. mann i been a mess sighs.. and im soo slak!! mannn someone gta kik me in the ass and make me do shit arghh blehhhh

that wat i miss about highschool! sighs.. they tellu wat u hav to do and wat u hav to study for and u got deadlines and they will chase u up and blehh sighs.. mannnn =(
im still sucha kid.. i gta grow up soon sighs.. its nearly the end of uni! blehhh

its sucha scary thought! bleh sighs i hate it actually zz ..i dont even know wat i wana do sighs.. wat i wana be.. blehhh sighshhh... i wish life were easier! Rofsl hahahaha =X

okkki i better not slak nemore..bleh sighs..
im going to read some cfp! lols =X sighs..

- dreamer

hmm wells i think ive been sick for two weeks now lols =/ not good not good at all! =(
i usually dont get sick very often during a year.. maybe once or twice max. but this year.. mannn.. my immune system been really weak i guess sighs... emotional stress lols.. lets just blame it on that hahah sighs.. that leads to many more problems.. trust me lols =/

hmm yes anyways.. i forgot if i blogged about my friggn scared the shit out of me hospital visit lols =X hahahaha.. sighs.. that reli scared me..i thought i was gona die lols =X hahaha or sumtink reli reli bad happend to me.. blehhh FAGGS hahaha sighs

anyways.. the fever/headache went away after about 4-5 days..=/ and then it was juz a cough.. hmm but then on thursday night the fever and headache came back agains..and mann fri i died lols hahaha.. i shivered non stop pretty much the whole day =X sighs...

sat mornings i woke up with a bit of a fever too..but thens.. it got better during the day at night i went to attend heidi and macys 21st =)mmm then laters went to metros for brennos ^^

ehhehehe overall.. gooood sat night =D heheheh.. best weekend iv had in two weeks..considering iv been sick for that long and been trapped at home in my own virus contaminated house..no..room! LOLS =X eww.. zzz

nahh it cant be that contaminated..coz the people who came to visit arent sick yet lols..

mmmms sigh well i gta get bak on track and start studying again ..gta do alot alot and i mean ALOT of catching up for uni...=/ zzz *sighs*...*CRIES*

oki well i better start then huh..zz

- dreamer

Sigh.. wells, yesterday my friends bro passed away..sighs (may he rip) sigh...
life is soo short.. theres not enough time for us to be angry and sad at each other..
we gta be happy and live life to the fullest.. gta smile and live with no regrets~

It sucks..loosing someone so close to u.. sigh i cant imagine wat my friend is going through coz ..he lost his bro! if i lost my bro. mann.. i wouldnt stop crying..

sigh hes lucky though..coz he gta say goodbye to him.. when melmo passed away..she didnt tell us how bad her condition was.. she jus left.. coz she thought that it would be easier for all of us.. sigh

death isnt easy for anyone.. no matter wat way they leave us..sighs
but we gta move on eventually... they wouldnt want us to be stuk and unhappy forever.. sighs...

i havnt lost anyone as close as my friend.. sighs.. iv lost my grandpa.. but he left when i was pretty young..both of them did actually.. i only rember my moms side more clearly coz they brought me up and looked after me when i was younger =)

the first time that i had coffee was with my granddad =) hehehe. i rmber us sitting in the kitchen of my grandparents old house in singapore.. and everyone was napping lols coz it was in the middle of the afternoon...^^
and then i was sittin on his lap while he dipped biscuits into the coffee =D hehe and then fed me =P sighs...mmm i love coffee and biscuits =)

ilove my granddaddy.. sigh i wish he was still here to see us all grow up.. i owe him and my grandma soo much for lookin after me ~sighs.. *tears*
mann i miss everyone back in singapore.. ilove them soo much..sighs
it sucks being soo far apart sometimes.. and only gettin to see them once a year.. sighs..

well this be a liddol poem that i wrote for melmo.. and for all them whov lost someone special..a friend..a brother..family.. sigh..

its hard to say goodbye...but we gota let go in the end..and theywl alwaise be ther for us..lookin down..lookin after us.. =) *hugs*

[Hard to say goodbye]

The day you left us
was the day that we all fell apart
You can't even begin to imagine how much I cried
You should have seen how many people came to see you

We love you with all our hearts
And we miss you more than ever
Your smile, your laugh..
The way you used to do that thing you do

You brightened up our worlds
Gave us all many great memories
You'll be in our hearts forever
No matter how far we are apart

I wish i could have been there to say goodbye
I wish that things were different
And you would be here
Sitting next to me, laughing...

It's hard to say goodbye
But i know iwl see you again
Looking down, looking after us..
We miss you with all our hearts melmo~

Much love forever*
RIP melmo 05-04-06

***************

- dreamer (reminiscing)

imiss u gonggong (heheheh granddadddy =Pp *s2*)

i think my favorite year out of all the ones that i have lived through so far has to be 2005!! hehehe

that be the year that roger and i started going out..
the final year for highschool at leeming senior! :(
the year that everything was soo carefree and fun
the year that we were all happy and together..and sigh...

the good ol' days!

about 3 hours ago i was looking through old random dvds finding out wat were on them lols.. and i came across 2005.. the period while i was in perth.. i think started about septemberish onwards =)

hmmm... first off.. the final year 12 luncheon.. sighs.. great great memories there! =) hehehe.. seeing everyone again and them talking hehe and laughing..sigh.. man those were the days.. the happy days.. but also sad coz we were all parting..
sighs.. but we definately made the most of it bak in year 12 =D hehehe

sighs seeing everyone again made me smile =) hehe big big smiles ^_____^ and made me happy again lol hehehe.. we all lookd quite young still back then hahaha.. good memories! good memories!

the next lot of clips where my bdayy! =) ehehe when i turned 17 =D hehe we were all at scarbourah beach lol on a RAINY DAY..hahaha sigh.. but man it was funnn.. and we were al havin soo much fun and best of all.. we were all together! sighs...

oki some of u ppl might think im crazy coz i keep sayin we are all together lols.. who is we!? hahaha.. wells.. bak in the day.. there used to be a very happy bunch of people.. we were all coupled.. well most of us.. hehe =) and we would always bum around together n it jus be great..and happy! ^___^

there was.. joel and jen, fuzzy and trisha, roger and me, kalvin and shay.. =) mann it was the bestest days of our lives back then lol.. sighs..

hehe and at the bbq me and roger prepared waterbombs lOl and attacked everyone hahaha i cant rmber if anyone got sick the day after lol but i wont be suprised hahaha.. sigh *smiles*

it was a fun dayy! hehehe =) i wish i could go back to that.. and smile and be trully happy again!!! sighs...

sigh anyways the next vid clip..........LOL well...hahaha actually this was before my bday hahaha.. originally there was a clip of me and roger.. i dont know wat we were doing..if i rmber correctly.. we were sittin in my tv room on the floor against the couch and singing songs..=) hehe and taking random pics and jus being stoopid hehehe.. *sigh*

but then i rmber when i went to china.. i didnt want my parents to see it hahahaha. so me and my brother did stoopid stuff instead to overwrite it lol =X sigh.. wat a waste..hahaha but o wels.. i still rmber!! =D thats all that matters hehehe and i got photos still =D heheheheh

yupyup...

next up was.. ama lees bday.. hmm i duno.. i didnt smile too much when watching that rofsl.. i kinda fast forwarded thru it lol.. hahahaha not like i dontt want to rmber.. haha bt.. mmm.. yeahh sighs hahahaha.. it was a tense bday party rofsl.. =/ alot of conflict! hahahah no comment....

hmmm.. next be...i thnk a lil clip of valedictory! nothing much there..jus lookin at the crowd of leemingers =D hehehehe

arghh im forgetting wats next lols hahaha.. i fnks its may have been rachs maccaz bday hehehe.. it was the last day that i saw courtz too..sighs =( i miss that girl lol.. she was my bestie bak in year 6 ya know haha.. and we used to play hand tennis... rofsl hahaha.. yes sigh hahaha *memories*

mmm and i think that was the end of the dvd lol =)

great great memories =D eheheh sighhh

i reli wish i could go bak to them days.. they were soo much easier and less stressing.. and sighhhhh soo carefreeee... =( *teaars*

ahh wells...
memories ^___^ *smiles*

kk well i shud study for my exams =X im going out in an hour to jennies steamboat party Lols hahahahah =Pp

yummi steamboat =D hahaha...

- dreamer (reminiscing)

well, as i told u in the last blog lol.. i went to the doctor yesterday morning at uni to get myself a med certificate lols =) hahaha so that i could defer my exams..coz sunday night..my slp was just as bad as the nights before lols.. haha sighs.. and in the morning.. man my headache was a killer..

sighs.. anyways went to uni for the appointment.. and.. hmm.. wel.. first she did the usual.. chekin temp and blood pressure.. and heart beat.. and then.. she told me to strip..? =/ wat the.. lols.. so.. i had to strip down to underwear rofls =/ and then she chekd if i had any rash or somethink? i duno.. its a symptom of sumtink..? lols i dunooo.. but NO i dont hav any rashes rofsl =X hahahaha

anyhoos.. after being prodded and inspected in my underwear rofls.. i got dressed again and then she told me that.. she wnts me to go to the hospital......

O_O...

hospital? lols.. she scared the shit out of me lol...
i was like..oh....okay then...

wat now? LOL

then shes like..yeah iwl call a cab for u now and then i want u to go to the ER and then one of the doctors there will consult u.. lol =x hahahaaha

me (thinkn) = OMG

hahahaha.. i was soo scared shitless rofsl..

so.. i went downstairs to wait for my taxi.....=/ and then went to the ER at Charles Gairdner.. hahaha.. down the road from uni ..

hmmmmmm do u know how long i sat ther for......

2 and a half hours! sighs!!! soooo friggn long... *dies*

and do u know how long the "appointment" with the doctor was for...?!

hmm about.. 10 mins.. LOl =/ nothing more than 15 mins .. hmmmm

OMGGGGGGGGGGG

lols hahahaa.. sighs..

sighs (yea im not reli concentrating on this blog atm so it might not make any sense.. hahah im running up and down watching ncis.. eventhough iv alredi watched this episode..)

hmm yes well.. err doctor was hot :D hehehe.. irish sounding guy lol..omgosh nice eyes.. and juz..aww nice hahaha sighh =D i like i like hahahahaha

yupyup.. wat else....

yeah i reli cant think now hahha..mind it not focused lol.. its a big mess.. sighs.. =/ well actually a big blank coz im doing too many things at one time.. X_x

hmm kk wells..
this mornign i went back to the docs and now got my exams deferred =) hehe and so now no exams til.. dno when...

i did one of them today tho.. it was a small one tho and easy so its all good =) hehehe

kk wells.. i shall finish off my ncis =) hehehe

goood luck for exams ^^

- dreamer

*cough cough*
the sickness has finally caught up to me.. lol sighs.. everyones been sick the past month and iv been going strong lol.. but then last night it hit me..and it hit me goooD!

i caught a fever last night.. i was shivering like crazy but i was extremely hot sigh.. it wasnt good at all..and i think its the worse fever iv ever had soo far..and i really hope that i dont experience anything worse hahaha

i think my fever developed coz i went from a reli warm room to a freezing temperature..
coz my room was heated and warm..but then i went outside and it was freezing.. espech since i been sittin in a heated room for hours.. hmm sighs..

anyways..it was not good at all.. even when i was sittin in front of the heater..i will still freezing.. and if u people know my heater.. if u get reli close to it..it burns! lol.. like realy burns hahaha.. but mann i was soo cold.. and i was shaking like insanely.. i couldnt even pour water properly...haha bleh sighs

hmm yeah so last night was not a good night.. i didnt get to sleep til about.. 4am sighs.. and then in the morning..the fever came back and i started shivering again bleh sighs.. not good!

and iv been in bed all day literally.. i tried to study but..it so not easy sigh.. my head was like throbbing all dayy.. its still hurting now bleh sighs..

hmmm sigh i feel like eating chocolate...lol =X it would make things worse!? hahaha i had chocolate and chocolate cookies this morning for breakfast in bed.. =) rogerness got them for me and fed me lol sighs..

ooki well im gettin cold again X_X so imma go and lie down sighs...
if this keeps up..imma get my exams deferred.. zz i cant take this lols.. sighs..
but i dont want to either coz i dont wana do it by myself.. that would suck lol sighs.. blehhhh must get better!!!!!

heheh kk well gdnites ppl and good luck for exams!

- dreamer (sick sick sick..sigh)

serenery

i believe that the simple things in life are always the most important
that we should never take the people around us for-granted.
life is never long enough, and is an unexpected journey.
and every obstacle are just life's tests to shape who we are,
that mistakes aren't "mistakes" but learning blocks to better ourselves.
i believe you have to take risks - to live life to the fullest and make the most of what we have.
because we only live once.

~ my goal of book reading still stands this year haha and so now i have decided to just list all the books iv been reading and read
> The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom
> Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom
> My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult
> Vanishing Acts - Jodi Picoult
> The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
> Deception Point - Dan Brown
> Highway Guitar Rose - Bridget Lowry
> The Pelican Brief - John Grisham
> Adrian Mole: The Wilderness Years - Sue Townsend
> For One Last Day - Mitch Albom
> Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - JK Rowlings
> Bridget Jone's Diary [the first one]
- Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince - JK Rowlings
- Singletini - Amanda Trimble
- Falling Blossom - Peter Pagnamenta and Momoko Williams
- The Deep End of the Ocean - i shall getbak to u lol
- Ugly - Constance Briscoe
- Simply Irresistible - Rachel Gibson

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