hmm the past few days been reli hot..sighs.. dying and dehydrating.. and dying..
hmm i randomli wrote this poem just then..
cant study.. im tired..its too hot and i miss him.. sighs
its pretty random i gues.. i duno zz
my poems are all retarded lols


To have you back..

What do i have to say for u come back?
what do i have to do, what is it that i lack?
i miss you so much, you cant even imagine
the tears that i cry, the pain that im feeling

every night it's so hard to sleep
i always toss and turn and begin to weep
i miss the nights you held me tight
telling me you love me and its all alright

when your gone i fall apart
why did you leave me with a broken heart
you said you loved me forever and a day
you told me that we would live together one day

all these promises now washed away
and all i do now is watch time pass day by day
it hurts not being yours
it hurts not calling tigger ours

and as the hours pass us by
i keep finding myself asking why
why did you have to leave and break my heart?
did you even love me, even at the start?

if you did, why did you leave me here
broken hearted and left in tears
you were my dream come true
you were the one, i love you

but you keep pushing me away
making the hurt deeper and deeper ever day
what do i have to say for you come back?
what do i have to do, what is it that i lack?

*imissu rL*

kk well im going to shower and start studying again sighs.. exam tmro!

- dreamer (missu)

argh i havnt studied for tmros exam all day =/ sighs now im starting to stress lols coz its nearli midnight -_- and tmro..is very very soon! LOL =/ *dies*

my fault for not studying earlier today rofsl..or studying at all today =/ lols..
well u cant blame me..not after cfp exam..sighs *dies*

hmm anyways.. before i can fully get into it..i gta get sum stuff off my chest..
hmm i reli dont know wat stuff it is..but i duno.. im thinkn things..sigh and i need to let it out..but i dont wana let it out on my friends nemore coz theyv helped enough and theyv had enough! sighs lols hahah zz yes sorry peoples =(

hmm.. i duno.. i cant even put into words what im feeling.. sighs.. i jus miss him =/ eventho he puts me thru hell half the time.. i reli still do miss him sighs..
and i was thinkn..wat to do during this hols...=/

i purposely stayed behind this year for him.. and now hes not mine.. wat do i do!? sighs.. and he sed that hes going to be busy and working most of the time..so he prob dont hav much time for me anyway sighs =( but.. bleh sif he wants to spend much time with me righT? sighs....

bleh i jus miss them times when he used to come home to me after work.. sighs.. knocking at my door late at night after his work and then bringing bak goodies lols and then him sleeping by my side and waking up ..by my side.. every morning sighs..

i wish that it could happen again sighs.. i wish that me and him were still okay sighs.. man if we were..right now we would both be studying together at mcl.. and man i wouldnt even be bloggin atm sighs.. coz i would be studying hard and id be with him.. and happy and hav nothing to complain about.. cept for myb cfp and all my other exams coming up ! lols .. but thats like everyone.. sighs

hmmmm yea and im jealous of his friends.. the 2nd years he made friends with at mcl this year.. sighs.. hes there soo often now =( and he spends so much time with them.. bleh sighs..i saw them today after cfp.. and blehh it jus suks.. i used to be the onli one..but now theres so many of them lols =/ .. yes that didnt make sense..and in my head it didnt reli make much sense either..but bleh.. point is.. sighhh iv lost him to everyone else...

i used to be.. all his.. everything he ever wanted.. the onli person he wanted to spend time with and be with.. sighs.. but then now hes gone and iv lost him to everyone else.. sighs.. it suks.... i just wana be his again.. bleh sighs

raaar..

anyways at least some shit is off my chest lol.. i better get back to study now.. the clock is reli fkn ticking fast tonight i tell u rofsl =X

my fault for watchn.. californication! BUT OMG ITS SOO GOOD LOLS

hhahahah oki welllll....

study time!!

good luck for exams peoples =)

- dreamer (sigh..missing u)

hmm well i think its about time i get my shit together and start studying for exams... lols sighs.. exams are next monday..tues..thurs then another the next week.. lols sighs
blehhh i duno how to reli start tho.. and wat to study for..

but last night i was at gp3 til 1am studying.. fsa and cfp.. zz i dont think much got in my head but im going to try again tonight lol =/hahaha

today..it shall be.. cfp articles now.. thens.. some fsa and then some more cfP...

hmm kk well im going to shower now..=)

- dreamer (in weirdo bleh mood..sigh missing u)

serenery

i believe that the simple things in life are always the most important
that we should never take the people around us for-granted.
life is never long enough, and is an unexpected journey.
and every obstacle are just life's tests to shape who we are,
that mistakes aren't "mistakes" but learning blocks to better ourselves.
i believe you have to take risks - to live life to the fullest and make the most of what we have.
because we only live once.

~ my goal of book reading still stands this year haha and so now i have decided to just list all the books iv been reading and read
> The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom
> Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom
> My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult
> Vanishing Acts - Jodi Picoult
> The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
> Deception Point - Dan Brown
> Highway Guitar Rose - Bridget Lowry
> The Pelican Brief - John Grisham
> Adrian Mole: The Wilderness Years - Sue Townsend
> For One Last Day - Mitch Albom
> Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - JK Rowlings
> Bridget Jone's Diary [the first one]
- Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince - JK Rowlings
- Singletini - Amanda Trimble
- Falling Blossom - Peter Pagnamenta and Momoko Williams
- The Deep End of the Ocean - i shall getbak to u lol
- Ugly - Constance Briscoe
- Simply Irresistible - Rachel Gibson

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