firstly, thank you everyone for the birthday wishes =) heheh

hmm yesterday was a very eventful day... i woke up at 830 in the morning to catch a bus and meet up with teresa in the city for breakfast at 915.. then we went to her work at subi to get my hair straightened ....TWICE! =/ zzz.. i could have got it curled but then yeah she had to straighten it twice..so yeah.. no time.....

which made me late for my dimsum! X_x which i arranged at 1130..but i ended up showing at about.. 1215 =/ sigh *SRY* big big big srys to jasmine and andreww lynesss lols =( but i wasnt the only one late lah.. lam and liza were late too =P they came after me hahah =D

hmm after that we went to iceyice..thens after that i went to uni to do a lil bit of study.. =/ hahah yes study on my bday.. i did one ilecture.. but nearly passed out on my table lols..coz i was soo tired.. sighs..

mm then got home at about....6 sumtinks and kod for a bit again then had to get up and get dressed to go to dinner with roger..mm it was meant to be a surprise lol he askd trisha fuzzy kal and shay to come out.. it was very sweet coz us 6 havnt been together in two years..! wow lol hahaha so long zz...

sigh it was reli nice.. reli reli sweet of roger... sigh but it suckd coz they were all still togther and we all went out around in the same time...so they are all hitting our 3 years soon..sighs.. and it sucks coz me and roger arent together nemore sighs..and the other two are.. zz and man it would be so nice if we all were still together and still happy sighs

*reminiscing*

man i miss them days..sighs i miss it heaps.. i wish that things were still the same and this bday would have been soo nice coz the surprise wouldn't have been ruined.. and sighhh it would be really nice and all happy days sighs.. happy daays.. sigh
i dont think them days are going to happen ever again lol.. =/ sighs..

it sucks but i guess its time to let go soon.. sighs zz cannot hold on to sumtink that might never come back to me sigh and someone who keeps sayin never to me now adays and pushing me away sighs.. bleh...

o wels.. we shall see what happens.. there's another one and a half months left.. i wonder if we will be okayy.. sighs.. zzz so far..i don't know.. it doesn't seem too very good at all blehhhhh...

argh o wels... wat will be will be...

anyways im reli hungry.. i gta cook me some foood!!!

thanku again to everyone and...

happy birthday to DADdy, DanNNy, ElAINe, bRian, aMa, wai yAn, wOngy, pEtaa, suE-li and LynNna.... and iwl happy bday the others coming up when they come up rofsl =P

- dreamer (missing us)

well October is ending, and this month has really been hectic!

not only the birthdays every single day .. for the next 5 days or so lols.. but my big problem, roger.
in fact, everything was going really well this month..although the usual occational fighting.. we were "ok".. we had an understanding and we were going to get through the year like that.. sigh..
but two nights ago it kinda came crumbling down.. we had a fight but man this fight is like none of the other fights!
this was was.. THE fight.. the major fight which killed me and it was bad that i dont think its possible for me and him to get over it for a very very long time.

its so bad that what we agreed to do (i shall tell u soon) doesnt make any sense at all and yes i do know its stoopid so dont have to remind me thanku.

hmm yes, we had a big fight which ended up with him saying that me and him will never be together ever again.. never! he said never! sighs =( he sed it a few times too.. so that really broke my heart..sigh into a billion pieces which i dont think can be put back together for a very long time.. sighs..

it sucks.. hearing never.. especially from someone who u thought u could see FOREVEr with.. and spent so many years with him and then now its all over.. and to think that its completely over.. and theres no more hope.. it really sucks.. big time.. sighs

i wish that things were different..and i didn't fight wit him..and we never broke up and i didn't do this and that.. and sigh.. i wish that he still loved me.. *tear*

anyways.. today we came to a very retarded agreement.. that me and him be "ok" until i leave to Singapore.. which is in about two months.. but about one month coz of exams.. sighs.. ok yes stoopid..but the main reason for this is.. coz of my bday and his bday..and man i really wanted to be here for his 21st..and it would be our 3 year anniversary too.. if we lasted..sighs (U) o wels.. its the past right.. i gta start thinkn like that =/ zz *bleh* as much as i hate it and it hurts..sighs

mmm yea so now..i should be treasuring it right? and trying to spend as much time as i can with him? sighs or like the time i have with him i should make the most out of it..sighs maybe it might leave a good impression..well no not impression, but he will remember the good times and reconsider his stoopid never.. !?

ok no wishful thinking serene..sighs zz

anyways.. i dno.. ilove him still... and man this goodbye is going to be sad..and long..and painful.. tears.. i wish that things were different and everything was still good between us..and we would have our 3 years and a happy bday for both of us.. something that we would remember forever.. sighs... *heartbrokened*

but yes we all knew that this was coming to an end eventually.. this whole craziness that wev had this year sighs.. and yes jh is right im in denial atm lol =/

bleh lets hope that things go good this last two months..and maybe hewl come crawling back like the other one.. =) lols.. *fingers crossed*

no matter what happens i know that i will always love him.. first love.. hard to let go.. sighs.. tears..

- dreamer (loving you always)

"life is 10% of what happens to you and 90% of how you respond to it"

IT DIDNT RAIN YESTERDAY and i was not prepared for my own bdaay lols.. i expectd it to rain and thought that it was gona be cancelled lol so i didnt do anything..
and then yesteday morning i woke up and it was sunny! OMG

zzz so i went shopping before hand and bought everything lols.. then went to cott.. to find that there were no bbq pits there and the one up the road at some nice random park.. HAD A WEDDING of all days man..

so had to relocate up the road to swanbourne beach lols.. and bbqed there lols..
it was sucha windy day =X lols.. zz but o wels..

thank u to all those who showed =D

photos are up on http://serenery.multiply.com *^-^*

- dreamer


last night...
i went to LINKIN PARK!!

omg it was awsum! like seriously greatness to the maximus! =D *big thumbs up*

best of all.. we migrated from GA2 to GA1 lol =X *shush* hahaha.. we got in line pretty earli so we were quite near the front =) and thens we gave the people our GA2 tickets.. and ran.....no stop..walked lol into GA1 =D ANDDD we got TO THE VERY FRONT OF GA1!!!!!!!!

like literally 3 rows from the front.....this be before we got pushed to the side and back a bit lol =X aahahha..but still we got pretty good places to stand coz we were on the side and so we were central!!!!!!!

it was reli gooooood =D reli awsummmmmm !! reli greatttttt =D hehehe..

they are reli good live..mann..omg.. it was soo fun =D besides the pushing and all the sweat =X and fat people around me =x zzz.. fat people know how to pusH.. zz not fair.. sighs...

anyways.. i recorded alot of stuffs..but my recorder on my fone and my camera is shit so i couldn get many good photos/vids..but when i get them uploaded iwl put sum up on the blog!! hehehe =)

it was great..singing..screaming the night away =D lols

then later we went to pizzaa lols =D

mmmm pizza hahahaa..

omg im still listening to LP... two days in a row now lol non stop LP only!! =Pp

ilove LP!!! come bak to perth again!!! =)

- dreamer

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hm wel today i shall blog two blogs.. first sad then good.. so the good will be on the top =) ie.less emo and depressing blog impression lol =/

hmm anyways.. yesterday was all good actually.. i had the time of my life.. but then it all came crashing down on me again today..
and u know wat, suprisingly.. it wasnt because of him this time.. he didnt even hav any slight influence =/ lol sighs...

instead it was friends.. and just me shutting myself down =/ sighs..

im meant to hav a beach bday bbq tmro arvo.. but the weather doesnt look very good for tmro.. its going to be 19 and raining =/ sighs.. thts definately not beach weather.. hmm so anwyays.. i decided to keep it going however, if it rains its called off.. which is fair enough right coz its going to rain?

hmm sighs.. so today i was meant to go out with a fw uni friends.. who i thought i was reli close with .. sighs.. but then i was proven wrong like i usual.. sighs..

wong told me the other day..that i hav shit friends and if they were real friends they wold come to my bday no matter rain or shine and would change work so that they could come down etc..

he sed that if they were real friends..when they got the invite.. or i askd them..they should say yes straight away like..wong and alvin and the rest of the boys =) sighs.. they are reali good friends sighs..and ilove em and thank them heaps for everything that theyv helped me with ..and juz being for me ..all the time!
iloveu boys!

sighs anywyays.. today was meant to go shopping and maybe hit the beach for a bit..to make up for tmros shitty beachy condition in advance.. sighs nothing much.. just sumtink small relaxing and simple with a few peoples..
but then it turns out.. bleh.. theyr just like all the other friends..
at least one of them tried for me.. he actually made an effort to ask people and try and make it happen for me.. sighs.. =)

the other one.. man i tought i was reli close to that one..sighs he reli made me sad..sighs.. he juz knda like.. kept makin up excuses..and it seemd like he didnt reli wana do anyting anyway..sighs and bleh.. it kinda reli suks.. n hurts.. to find out that those who are ur close friends.. are all jus fake and not reli close at all.. theyr jus friends.. and arent reli there when u need them to be there..

cries

iv really lost a whole lot of friends ..sighs.. i dont even hav a reli close friend nemore.. bleh sighs.. roger keeps telln me that i complain too much and tahts its annoying ..bleh sighs its not complaining..sigh its me being sad..sighs.. my life has reli been crumbing every day sighs .. man this year has been reli reli bad to me. sighs.. i dont know why.. its probably karma.. i havnt done many good things in my life..sigh i guess thats how imma get punished..by whoevers up ther =/ sighs

sighs life reli suks..

i hate all them people who pretend to be ur friends but then.. they reli want wats best for themselves.... and only invite u to bdays for presents or smtink like that.. sighs..

man iv had soo many problems with friends this year..sighs.. not fun at all =(
some people are jus so fake.. they pretend to be ur friends.. sighs.. its jus dodgyy.. i hate it...

i want someoen who will be truthful and not say shit behind my back.. and who will be there for me whenever i need them.. even if i dont ask .. they will know i need them there n be ther for me no matter wat..sighs

i miss my chris.. were not that close nemore..sighs but.. i still reckon hes the closest thats ever gotten there.. hes the bestst friend iv had.. ever..sighs.. the onli thing he doesnt meet..is being ter for me physically coz hes in singapore =( which reli suks..sighs.. i reli wish he were still here.. sighs.. i never reli gota be bestest bestest friends with him while he was here..coz he left soo fast sighs..

imiss u heaps chris and love u so much *Hugs* thanku for everything that uv done for me.. for all the times uv leant me ur shoulder.. no wait.. ear and phone to cry on =) lols.. and all the crap u hav to put up with.. sighs.. ur the bestest out there!

loveu chris



anyways..iwl get to the good news now..=) i juz had a kitkat.. it made me happier a bit =) hehehe

- dreamer



sigh.. last night was the asia cocktail! it was good lol.. very packed like usual bt yeah..good =) alot of people i knew this year was ther coz they finally over legal age..like me rofsl =X haha...
mmm but this year went with roger too.. hmm as the ex lol ..interesting sigh..
big mistake! lols sigh.. he got a bit bleh near the end of the night.. (the end in his books..sigh still earli inda night for me) and got pissy at me..and we ended up yellin at each other in the club sighs...

mmm..but yeah besides that it was good.. i think got a total of ..11 drinks that night =).. that wat i love about the cocktail! free drinks everywhere and freee entry coz of selling tickets! lols =D hahaha so last night i didnt spend a cent! =D hahaha

good times good times =)

hmm yes with my blog title..lols...

roger roger roger sighs..

cant expect anythng from them boys.. they will jus end up disappointing u half the time.. and then yeahh ur back where u started..with nowun lols.. and it suks but this time u get ur heartbrokend too.. and i dont think im makin any sense! hahah blEH*

i dont understand wats happening with me and him agains.. its alwasie retarded.. been retarded for nearli a whole year..! mans..we onli went out for two years..and this year.. we havnt been together.. but we hav been togther sometimes..lols..mannn retarded! blehhhh

i duno..i cant think atm.. head hurts a bit..

but yeahh..roger..sighh i wish things would juz clear up soon and ..yeahh move on..or b with him.. i duno.. we cant juz keep going at this for years =/ may as well b e married lol.. no wait that dont reli make sense either huh lols

hmm bleh oki well im going to do some study sighs..iwl write more later when my head working properly lols =)

- dreamer (loving u)

serenery

i believe that the simple things in life are always the most important
that we should never take the people around us for-granted.
life is never long enough, and is an unexpected journey.
and every obstacle are just life's tests to shape who we are,
that mistakes aren't "mistakes" but learning blocks to better ourselves.
i believe you have to take risks - to live life to the fullest and make the most of what we have.
because we only live once.

~ my goal of book reading still stands this year haha and so now i have decided to just list all the books iv been reading and read
> The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom
> Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom
> My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult
> Vanishing Acts - Jodi Picoult
> The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
> Deception Point - Dan Brown
> Highway Guitar Rose - Bridget Lowry
> The Pelican Brief - John Grisham
> Adrian Mole: The Wilderness Years - Sue Townsend
> For One Last Day - Mitch Albom
> Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - JK Rowlings
> Bridget Jone's Diary [the first one]
- Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince - JK Rowlings
- Singletini - Amanda Trimble
- Falling Blossom - Peter Pagnamenta and Momoko Williams
- The Deep End of the Ocean - i shall getbak to u lol
- Ugly - Constance Briscoe
- Simply Irresistible - Rachel Gibson

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