wow i just found out that tonight there is gona be an illusion with the moon.. and we gona see two moons tonight =P haha.. im googling it atm haha =X iwl paste info here soon lols
and also tmro is gona be the first time in three years that the moon is gona turn red...!! hahah omg.. red..bloood red moon! omgosh.. magic i tell u!! magical sighs...

a lunar eclipse huh hehe..omgosh cant wait..imma bring my camera to uni hahaha =P iwont miss it! lols =P tonight is a full moon too heheh the moon is soo big and round and bright..and jus wow sighhh....

magic can happen on these nights lol hahahaha...ok that sounds lame..but i duno.. jus wow...lol sighs... this is gona be coool =D


THE moon will fall into Earth's deep shadow on Tuesday, taking on a lustrous red or orange hue during the second total eclipse of 2007.

The moon does not disappear from view during a full eclipse, but is shielded by Earth for about 90 minutes from the sun's direct light.

A total eclipse can only take place at full moon, and only if the moon passes through the zone, called the umbra, in which the Earth blocks all of the sun's rays.

The colour cast by refracted light - which can range from bright orange to blood red to copper to dark grey - depends on the amount of volcanic gas and dust in the atmosphere blocking the sun's light.

In the absence of recent eruptions, the moon should be a vivid red or orange, according to NASA.

Total lunar eclipses normally occur roughly every couple of years, but this year there will have been two, the other having taken place on March 3.

The next chance to see the moon slip entirely into terrestrial shadows will be on February 21, 2008, but after that the wait is longer: December 2010.

omgosh ....excited!!!!!!!!

hahahhaha kkweli better stdy!lols or else i wont tonight hahahah X_x
go look out at the mooon ppl! lols =P u dun wana miss it hahaha

- dreamer (mystified!)

haha muddle..wat a funny word =X
hahaaahah anyways the muddle being... a guy lol sighs.. i think.. well its pretty daymn obvious to everyone tat he likes me.. =/ and im scared lol. sighs
i dont like him taht way lah zz sigh hes a friend sigh and hes a nice guy..reli nice and all..and smrt and would prob make a reli good bf..but no..lols hahaha
sighs..
hes the kind of guy who goes out with girls for like 2 months longest.. lol sigh and hes just very flirty.. haha sigh..
the thing is.. he likes me.. more than a friend.. bleh
and me.. sigh i like being around him and flirting with him. but.. bleh i dun see me and him going out.. sigh to me...hes jus a friend..=/ bleh and i think that be all he is for now..sighs =(

i mean, hes a great guy and all..but sigh.. i duno.. im friends with him.. IF we do go out.. we wouldnt last for very long AND.. then it would be akward after that..=/ lols.. coz like he started as a friend... then bf? err.. lol sighs

and jus no.. i dont like him that way.. man i still got the thing for rogerness sighs

bleh i duno wats up wit this month rofls.. =/ alot of boy related things been happening =/ sighs..
the exs are back and then this new one =/ bleh lols..
well not back back..but.. they are back in a way..llol i cbb explaining rofls =/ but m0st of u shud know wat happend hahaha sighs..

hm yeah sigh..big muddles..=/ i duno wat to do lols hahaha..
i duno how to tell him er...no! lol X_x i dont wana hurt h is feelings lah sighs =( hes a nice guy and i like being with him ...AS A FRIENd sighs.. but howww.. hahaha sigh
it jus be akward ...argh omg..no comment sigh im soo tired lah..i wana slp.. =( *zZzzzzzzzz*

hmmm sigh anyways, midsems are coming up..imma juz ignore everyone hahaha =X and try and study and yeahh sigh

oh shit.. on sunday ther is a trade expo too! =/
had to make up a song, sing, dance and choreo..lol omg..dies.. hahah i hope i dont die of embarassment lols hahah sighs

hmmm sigh ok well imma start the ilectures..

- dreamer

(btw i think iv gottn fatter rofls.. been eating alot of shit lately rofsl haha sigh..soo unhealthy blehhh i feel soo shitty sighs and not enough slp too sighs blehhh mann iv been stressing like shit lately lol sighs.. cries.. okkkkiiiii ilectureeeee)

wow today is one of the nicest days.. well no..todaay IS the nicest day since the day i got back from singapore/china lols...
its like..perfect! =)

not too hot and sunny.. but ther is sun shinning lols =P and not much wind..only a cool warm breeze =) hahhaa.. man its really nice outside..

i wana go out but i duno wat to do lols.. i could do gardening..but that would jus ruin the nice day.. coz i wont be enjoying the gardening lols.. hahaha..
i was thinkn about running around leeming..but... its a bit random since its 2.30.. nowun runs around at this time of day lols.. hahah =/

hmm..sigh.. its too nice today.. im wasting it by sittin here in my room lols.. and going to study too! omg.. zz.. i feel like studying outside..rofls..but i duno where haah =/ i got a table outside but its under the shade..i want sunnnnn! hahaha and iv gone crazy? rofsl =X

i wish i had a hammock..
if i did, right now i would be lying in it and reading my book.. while listening to the birds chirping in the bakground and the sound of the trees swayin side to side.. sighhhhhh *imagines*

or i dont mind if we had a picnic today lols.. its seriosuly perfect picnic day! lols..
but nowun knew today wud be such a nice day lols.. sighhhh...

i wish my family were here today sigh.. man today iv been missing them heaps.. coz its such a nice saturday day! lols.. and sat.. everyone is all at hme today.. and then i would be making my s2 tarts with my mom in the kitchen.. and then i duno wat my bro and dad b e doing.. but then we would go out sumwher i guess..and the whole kitchedn will smel like chocolate and raspberry =) and when they are cooked..we would eat them while they are fresh and hot.. and eat them outside lols on our outdoor table lols... haha
and throughout the house will be music playing..hehe nice music =) sighhhhh

mannnnnnnn.....

instead im sittin here alone in my room lookin outside the window..sighs....

dreaming...

hmm i wish i could draw too...
i would be sittin out there and drawing the ..err trees and all lols =P hahaha..scenery! sighs..

man i wish i had a car.. lols..
i wouldnt be here now.. i would hav driven to piney lakes..and sat ther in front of the pond and doing my hwk or jus relaxing.. sigh.....

mannnnn i cant take this nemore rofls.. i need to go outside for a while......

appreciate life and nature? lols aahaha.. sighs its tru tho.. zz im online wayy too much now adays.. sighs...

man perfect songs on my playlist atm too hahaha...
mr kenny g jus came on!! haha sighhhhh....

from the duets album
sorry seems to be the hardest word*

~~ sigh kenny g.. lols... see, this be wat id play in the house today haha if my family where here.. relaxing music hehe and the whole house will smell like choco and raspberrys...
and ..sigh itd just be perfect! sighs.....

omg i must stop dreaming lols..
i gta study or sumtink lols...
going out tonight =)

hehee..

kk.. write more laters...
GO OUTSIDE PPL! lols =P

- dreamer (sigh dreamy world)

i finally did it!! its been soo long.. lol sgh..
roger came over today after uni..and i cooked us some dinner.. then after that we went out to bullcreek to buy some foood =) hehe.. and ..then that was that! lol =X

he went home after that! and i didnt say anything! i didnt cry! i didnt ask him to stay longer! lol.. man it was .. wow hahaha.. its taken me like 8 months to get to this =) lol...

sigh i still do miss him at times..but.. i guess.. i dont reli wana be hurt soo bad again..
i do miss him..and i still do hav a place for him in my s2
but hes so gta earn it back if he wants it lol.. and if we go out again..iwl be leaving him if it ends lol!
haha sigh..

yeahh anyways..im the most bored person atm i think.. besides jasmine..shes pretty bored too! hahaha.. why isnt anyone online tonighT? sighs..
i would study..but i really am NOT in the moood! =/ iwl start tmro! lols.. i got the whole day to study tmro! i shall make the most out of it =D hehehe..

its time to get things bak on track yes? sigh =) hehee.. gta catch up on everything and yeahh.. cant keep holding on to ...the past.. =) sighs..

serenes back !! =D heheh

mmm yes anyways.. i duno wat to write..im soo bored atm lols hahahaha...
i am actually trying to enrol into some competition but..its not working.. i dno..i cant find out where to enrol lols X_x it says to loook at the site..but i am! and its not ther !

hmm yeah for some reason..everything is lagging too..
maybe im not even online nemore...rofls..stoopid adsl connection! lols =( sighs
blogger cant even save my post atm rofl...
"could not contact blogger.com"
and nowuns recieving my msgs on msn! =( ...

noooooo im being lonered sigh =( stoopid net..pls work! haha sigh

mannn im soo bored!!!!!
why didnt roger ask to stay longer sigh.. LOL =X
argh i wish that he did..sigh i didnt wana ask him tho..coz..that jus be wat i alwasie do.. sigh.. so i gta make him ask if he wana see me right? blehh

mann going soft! LOL.. arghh hahah man i going soft soo fast! so not good!! LOls..gta be strong.. *raaaaar* lols...

kk well i dno wat else to ramble on about....

hmmm.. yeah..no nothing hahhaha =X
i hpe this can be posted =/ zzz

*ctrl c* ahahaha

- dreamer

argh im soo jealous!!
im on su yins site again and man.. she is soo pro she makes me feel super noobie lols haha..
for those who dont know who im talkin about rofl or havnt read my old blogs lol.. she is PRO!
lols..she is like..super cake decorator and chef and just pro pro pro! lols hahaha
i reckon that she should actually go and make a book and then id buy it for sure =D hehehe..

anyways.. yeah..LOL thats really all i came to blog about roofls.. coz im eatin my very late dinner.. very late and shitty dinner! lols =( sighs.. and yeah..mann hers is soo pro! i wana cry lols haha =(

blehhhh

ok lOL i better study! lols..

- dreamer

i shall make somethink this weekend! jus u wait and see =D

man im such a noob..sigh im soo slow and behind in everything atm..
ITSTIME TO CATCHUP!!!

sighs.. hahahah mannn first up im going to finally get my stoopid licence and then get a job! lol. sigh.. its reli scary actually.. sigh the past few days.. =/ hmmm..
most of my uni friends..they are all soo.. determined!? sghs.. they all.. know wat they want and they all wana do vac work in huge accounting firms and do l ike CA and CPA.. *eeks*

all that stuff scares me.. alot actually!...sighs.. =(

i went to a careers evening on monday night... hmm there they had all the big firms and ppl just talkin about the company and how u can apply etc.. hmm its all accounting and finance firms.. like the big 4.. X_x zz

i duno.. i dont think im really into all that..sigh. im more.. to the simpleness lol? i duno.. i juz. never reli thought i would get stuk in a office doing accounting and finance?? lols..

me, personally would rather marketing and sales..lols..=/ haha i know that it doesnt pay as well and all.. but.. hmm.. i duno.. the whole big 4 thing... it dun really interest me too much..and mann my friends are all jus soo determined man.. sigh =( (which is a good thing..lols but it jus makes me hel scared)

they all got jobs... man some of them got really good jobs.. sighs and they are all into things like shares and investments etc.. and im like..WAH? lol sigh.. i feel like such a noob..sighs
man i dont even hav a resume.. yes laugh all u wnt.. bleh..lol sigh yeahhhhhhh.. arghhhh

i think i lack alot of confidence actually.. zz sighs.. im afraid of rejection? zz im sure everyone is.but me.. sigh hahaha.. idno =/ thats jjust me...

gta learn serene! lol sigh..bleh and im talkn to myslef..sigh how sad..

hmmm.. i shall go find a job and get my licence by the end of this year..=) .. licence.. i doubt i can get by the end of the year..but lol..hahahah =X iwl try =)

hmmm i duno...

i dont see myself in like firms such as deloitte, kpmg, pwc etc.. zz i dnt know.. i can see myslf doing marketin tho.. helping out in a kik ass branded store lol haha helping them with their advertising and marketing =) thats more wat im going for..? i think? sighs...

ir eli dont know actually..imma mess lol hahaha and im graduating soo daymn soon! i dont know wat to do =( sighs.. arghhhh i feel soo stoopid and nooby and i dont like it at all..sighs =(

arghhhhhhhhh time to grow up huh!..sighs.. i wana earn my own money.. sigh everyone else does ..bleh i wana drive myself around instead of fkn busing it all the time..sighs... and i dun wana use my passport to enter all the time lol.. man cards! hahaha.. bleh..

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oops i didnt finish blogging rofl.. i got distracted hahah this be one hour later now..lols

hhmm i just had a shower.. gettin really hungry now and house is on..nooo lol sigh, man i reli gota study! see..thts just the thing..i cant concentrate..lol i just learnt today that my friend takes drugs to study! lol... so that it will keep him awake and high! lol =X hahaha.. hmm maybe i need some rofls...mm but no!lols..

drugs are bad mmkay!

hahaha okay well..im going to find food to eat/cook!
iwl write more another day =)

- dreamer

wow i actually did it..by myself too! hahah its been a while.. a very long while!
hmm wat did i do? lol i woke up at 73oish ! lols hahahaha...

last night i was soo dead and buggered.. and coudlnt even think so i went to sleep instead of doing my fsa tute..which is at 11am inda morning lols..
and so i told myself that i would wake up at 7am to do it inda morning..lol..

you see, usually when i say that..i dont usually wake up in time.. i would wake up and be like.. fuk! *jump out of bed and run to bus stop* LOL hahaha coz i cant wake up =( hahaha.. sighs

but omg i woke up rofls..and now im doing my tute =D hehehe. waking up early is good! lol shud do it more often! lols..then i can actually have breakfast and stop dying in classes..lol =/ sigh..
but being slak is good too.. man..sleep rofls.. i love the beD ahahahah

okkkkk noooooo must stop thinkn about sleep! rofls
im going to get some cornflakes =D hehehe..
and study study study! LOLS

- dreamer (gdMORningS!!^^)

hmm waste of the weekend..
waste in not a bad way.. mm... meaning i was planning to do alot of study this weekend..but.. instead was out everyday lols hhahaa..

hmmmmmmmmm.. i didnt finish this blog..lols

anyways.. the past few daays been all going out! lols

hmm friday was in the city all night.. well doing uni stuff..but i was out..til about.. 11ish.. hmm..
saturday.. i did somethink on sat.... i forgot tho lols =X hahaha... but i know id idnt study at all =X lols.. OH YEah saturday.. hmm i went to southlands with mish to do some more uni stuff..but then after that i went bk home and weiliang came over with TWO pizzas =S lols and then we had dinner n watched a movie.. =) hehe then he went to pick up kimmmi ^^
then after that alan came over and we watched another movie lols..then i was on the fone til about.. 4am =/ zz
hmm sunday.. door knocking day! lols.. hmm sold 7 in about 3 hours lol =X zz.. it was okay tho..

and now today.. ther was an info session tonight at the convention centre til 8.. hmm after tat nish alan shaun and i went to nb for dinner and bbt.. =) hmm got home at 11..=/ lols

hmm yes now..im not doing anything.. i shud reli go to slp soon tho.. i gta wake up earli to catch bus sigh..and then tmro is going to b e another very long day...

i gota board meeting and then diinner after that..then gta do tutes for wed..=/ omgosh going to die.. sighs =X

hmm kk..well.. nitesss ~

- dreamer

hmm i thnk iv been doing good the past week!? =)

iv had maybe one cry i think..lol sighs.. but i think this week iv managed to keep myself quite the busy! ^^ hmm.. yesterday me and mish went around to nearly every shop in the city to give out letters asking them if they wnted to support and donate stuff to us lols hahahah X_x..
overall it hink we did okAy :) hehehe

actually i think we pulled a big first prize =P hehehehe.. im hoping that we do! lols.. im waiting for a reply ! heheh =D i shall tell u when it happens..if it happens rofls =X

hmm yes.. wat else.. on thursday night went late night at garbo with shaun alan and mish.. didnt really buy anything..but had maccas? lols =/

hmmm i duno.. rofl maybe nothing much lols.. just that i need to keep myself busy during the night lols..=X hahaha.. hmm today i duno wat im going to do tho ! lols..might be emo today hahaha.. hmm i just vacuumed the house.. going to mop soon after this blog...

i was thinkn of going to target actually to wlk around a bit and buy some milk...

i shud be doing my hwk tho.. catch up on cfp =/ im going to die this sem lols haahaa..sighs.. mm but then its so hard studyin at home..cant concentrate..zz.. n i just heard that the library is closed.. sigh....

but its such a sunny day too lols..i wana go out..but nowun wants to go out..lols or nowhere to go sighs.. wat to do wat to do! =(

hmmmmm..

okay well im quite the blur atm.. i shud do some weed pulling.bt.. lols.. i cbfd =X hahaha

omg thers soo much stuff i have to do :( sighs.. i need to pick up the slack! =X sighhhhhhhh

stress stress...

kk well.. going to mop the kitchen now =) omg and wash the toilet =X lols...

sigh..

- dreamer

finallyyyyyyyyy!!

iv been tryin to blog for the past two days but my net has been acting up on me big time! lol sighs..
hmmm but now im on i dnt know wat to blog about.. lol *mental blank*

hmmm..wells, last night was weirdo.. i woke up like 2wice and then woke up completely at 8amish.. and went to uni til 8pm..and didnt fall aslp! Lols.. but now im mtired like shit lols.. my eyes are sore.. sighs =/
iv never had such unko slp before..ever =/ hmmmm.. i duno wats wrong with me.. lols

hmmmmmmm..

oh, on sunday we went to the canningvale markets to try and sell our herbS lols..=X hmm response wasnt too great lol.. but we sold 5 lol =X eeks..
i put up some random pics that we took that day on...

www.thegreenwayahead.blogspot.com

hmm yes, ok well im very blur atm..and im going to go lie down and slp lols =)

gooodnights~!!

- dreamer

i guess its about time huh..
man hes put me thru soo much pain and shit this past half year..
hes always thinking that hes right and so i am the one who always have to say sorry and make things better between us..
sigh u know wat, i dont know if i wana do that nemore..hmmm.. i dont think that i should have to say sorry to him all the time when clearly its not always me.. or if its both of us.. i shouldnt have to take the blame for it all...
its not fair...
its really unfair actually.. tears

man, it hurts alot.. i just msgd him saying that.. maybe we should just say bye now coz obviously he doesnt feel the same way and his actions, not sayin sorry and hanging up on me when i try to make things better.. sigh.. obviously he doesnt have time for me anymore.. and he doesnt care as much anymore.. or he would have said sorry to me.. sigh or at least listen to me..
but instead he hangs up.. he doesnt bother msging back to say sorry.. it hurts..

i dont know if i can keep waiting anymore.. it hurts soo bad to wait for .. maybe nothing at all.. sighs.. i cant deny my feelings for him.. i do love him.. sigh but i dont know if this love is fair and going to work anymore.. i wana be happy again.. sigh i dun wana cry.. i hate feeling jealous sigh.. and i wana stop thinkn about him soo much.. cries

sigh i msgd him to say goodbye.. i told him that.. its quite clear now... that theres no more space left in him for me.. sighs that maybe its best that we say goodbye now.. coz he doesnt seem to care as much anymore.. he doesnt care when were together as a couple, and he doesnt care to even keep our friendship strong.. he just uses it whenever he wants.. sighs..

man i duno wats happening atm.. sighs i told him happy bday, merry xmas and happy new year in advance coz we prob wont be seeing each other when the time comes.. sighs.. he replied sayin that i shud not think too much and do something else or else i might regret saying wat im saying.. sighs..

maybe i shud hav left it..? but i replied sayin that its obvious were really screwed and for him to be happy.. i have to go...

tears.. its going to be hard not talking to him or seeing him ... but i guess its all for the best.. cries.. its probably going to kill me..and i am going to regret..cries.. but doing wat me and him are doing now.. isnt gettin anywhere either...

he gives me false hope..cries.. he makes me cry non stop.. but eventho its probably going to kill me.. i guess its for the best.. if he does care.. and want to try..he'wl come back and talk to me and try to make things okay... sighs...

i wonder how long i will last...

i already deleted him off my msn again.. sighs.. man how long is that going to last.. sighs..
how long can i take pretending that im okay.. and that it doesnt hurt.. and to put on my fake smile once again... sigh in front of all the couples.. cries.. mannn.. i cant take it already... tears..

man why am i soo stoopid.. to let myself belong to him.. cries.. he controls me.. man nowun has ever made me cry soo much ever... sighs.. and its been soo long too... blehs
i wonder how much longer it will take for me.. tears...

my heart aches every day..every night.. everything reminds me of him.. sighs.. every memory makes me cry.. bleh.. i cant sleep well at night.. sighs and i cant be myself.. i just feel soo sad.. sighs.. and its soo not worth it..blehs..thers soo many other things that i gta do.. blehh sighs...

man i wana be strong again.. sighs i wana be me again..bleh.. i dont like this sad..stoopid girl who keeps crying over a boy..one boy!..sigh mannnnnnn....
but thats the boy taht this stoopid girl fell in love with and gave up everything for.. cries...

mAn how stoopid is this girl..

sighs..

time to say goodbye... time to try and move on witout him... sighs...
man iwl need soo much help for this one.. blehh.. cries...

its been like.. onli 15 mins since i sent him the sms..and mann im soo loosing it already lols.. sighs.. bleh im soo stressed out.. arghhhhhs *cries*

mannnnn i soo gta be kept occupied.. cries.. coz i cant stop thinking about him.. i think the sleepless nights are gona start all over again.. blehhhh fuk i cant stop crying.. sighhhhh...

shit maybe i reli shudnt hav sed wat i sed to him..
imagine..me saying goodbye to him? ........omg....
cries....

now i just feel like shit.. waiting for him to be like.. no we can be friends.. zz.. BLEh..
FuK SerEne.. stop hoPing for shit that probably wont ever happen ever again..........
MAnnnnn *slap* imma idiot!!!!!!!!

bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh
bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh
bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh
bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh

someone pls kill me!!!! sighssssssssssssss

- dreamer

sigh well i shud hav kept my blog updated..then u wudnt hav to hear it all in one big blog..sigh.. one big sad emo blog..i warn u lol =/ sighs

sigh well it all started the day i got back from singapore/china.. he picked me up from the airport..and man.. he askd me out again..! sigh.. i thought wow.. sigh.. omg.. lol =/ i was happy! reli happy.. but in the same time.. angry at him..coz he was the one who broke up with me int he first place..and when he wants me back..he gets me back.! sigh..

its not like i wanted him to get his way..but it reli took me by suprise..and sigh.. i gave in..sigh
anyways.. our so called attempt only lasted for 9 days..=( sighs.. *tears*

man im soo sad.. sigh like sad sad..as in crying sad..lol sigh.. i guess it dun hurt as much as the first time..but it still hurts bad..sigh.. i reli still do like him.. quite a bit i guess..and yes i know im stoopid and shudnt hav let him in and let him hurt me again..but i dno..sigh.. i guess its the whole first love thing..and sighh i duno.. i guess i kinda lived with him for one and a half years!? sighs..

and the worse thing is..i think that i wud fall for him again! sighs.. now we are just "friends".. but i told him taht that probably wont work out for very long..coz me and him being friends.. hmm sigh.. we were never friends to start off with and we dont hav friends in common..sighs =(
man i do want to be friends with him if thats the only thing that i can have..but then again.. i dnt..
sigh i juz wna be happy again! and i dont know if i can take it ..seeing him and just being.. friends... man that would hurt too coz inside i still love him sighs =( and then the day he goes out with someone else......sigh that wud be the end of.. i duno.. hopefully not me..sigh but it wud hit hard.. sigh and iwl get hurt again for no reason..sighs..

mann im scrwed.. see, i know wats going to happen.. and that iwl get hurt again..but i still go in for more..sigh i still like him..and i still give in to him.. man i still wud do anything to get him back and for him to love me again...sighs.. yes i am young and i shudnt thnk that he is the one and ther are many other people out ther..sighs.. i know that..but right now.. me being the stubborn.. heartbrokened person that i am.. sigh i say that he cud be the one right now.. sighs and i do love him a liddol bit still..sigh in my heart he will alwaise alwaise be there..coz man we had a huge history.. u cant imagine..sighs and it hurts every day not being able to hold him and hug him and call him mine..sigh... it reli breaks my heart.....sighhhs

now.. i duno wat is happening.. well truth be told...we are not together nemore..and i soo gta face that fact! sigh .. and i am! blehh its not like the first time..sigh blehhh but mann it hurts..sigh
sigh i duno.. hes like.. iwl see u once a week to take u grocery shopping..coz he knows that i live home alone..sigh and iguess he kinda does care...well ok not kinda..he does care! sighs
anyways.. i dno wat to do.. im thinkn sigh i cud either stay close and be "friends" with him.. and then mybe one day hewl be lookin forward to see me once a week..sighs and then we cud try again.. sigh but then.. if i do that..i cud get jipped..and then he will reli think of me as a friend and then when he gets another girl..iwl just crumble and die like i hav been doing the past half year.. sighs
the other option being..i jus ignore him.. blehhhh yes ok im sure all of u are telling me to do just this..sigh but man its not easy to let him go..and man i do llike him alot..and i waana see him sigh =( and yes i know its soo not healthy and good for me..blehhhhhhh !!!

anyways..sighhh yes that be my retarded love.. no wait.. not just love life.. this be my life! right now lol..sighh unis being a bitch too.. but i gues tats mostly related to the fact that i lost him for the second time..sigh..

arghhhhhh serene u gta be strong and stop dreaming..sigh.. its not worth it..sigh man iv been dreaming for soo long...

zzz im going to go and try do my tute..

- dreamer

serenery

i believe that the simple things in life are always the most important
that we should never take the people around us for-granted.
life is never long enough, and is an unexpected journey.
and every obstacle are just life's tests to shape who we are,
that mistakes aren't "mistakes" but learning blocks to better ourselves.
i believe you have to take risks - to live life to the fullest and make the most of what we have.
because we only live once.

~ my goal of book reading still stands this year haha and so now i have decided to just list all the books iv been reading and read
> The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom
> Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom
> My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult
> Vanishing Acts - Jodi Picoult
> The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
> Deception Point - Dan Brown
> Highway Guitar Rose - Bridget Lowry
> The Pelican Brief - John Grisham
> Adrian Mole: The Wilderness Years - Sue Townsend
> For One Last Day - Mitch Albom
> Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - JK Rowlings
> Bridget Jone's Diary [the first one]
- Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince - JK Rowlings
- Singletini - Amanda Trimble
- Falling Blossom - Peter Pagnamenta and Momoko Williams
- The Deep End of the Ocean - i shall getbak to u lol
- Ugly - Constance Briscoe
- Simply Irresistible - Rachel Gibson

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