It didnt turn out as planned...
im not suprised..sigh...
after all that dreaming.. it seemed just way to good to be true....to come true..sigh..
first the fog..the delay sigh.. signs huh? sigh..
well.. im stoopid.. knowing me.. i alwasie make things worse.. even if i dont intend to and know that what im doing will just make things worse...

sigh wel.. today be the last day...
tonight be the end..
the end of the road..lol sigh.. i still love him..and i know that i alwasie will love him..
he was the greatest thing that ever happend to me..
changed me...
made me who i am now...
and i love him..i love him for him and everything that has happend between me and him..

letting go..

the hardest thing ever..
iv never done this before..not anywher close to this...
he reli is the first love of my life..
maybe i dont understand what love is yet?
i think i do tho..

he makes me feel something that nowun else has ever ever made me feel..
when i think about him or going to see him or just being with him.. something inside of me tingles and .. i just get all butterflies lol.. everywher..=)
its a weirdo..but great feeling..and i love it..and i love him.. sigh *cries*
i dont know if i can get over him ever.....

i know i cant...

a part of me will alwasie be with him...forever...
i need to let go..

*cries*

i didnt think it would be this hard.. sighhh
i thought that over my holidays.. i partially did it..but i guess i was off..wayy off..sighh..
its soo hard...
when i saw him..i broke down inside..sigh
and i just wanted to hug and kiss him and tell him how much i love him and miss him..and want him and need him soo muchhh! arghhh
but its all fukd nww..
its all over...

sighh...

cries..

i gta sstop crying...sighhh
it hurts..
i cant breath..sighh

i love u soo much roger...
i will alwasie love u..sighh


-- 22nd feb... sighh

my last serenade.. i love u ger..sigh =( *cries*


- lost dreamer (broken hearted)

serenery

i believe that the simple things in life are always the most important
that we should never take the people around us for-granted.
life is never long enough, and is an unexpected journey.
and every obstacle are just life's tests to shape who we are,
that mistakes aren't "mistakes" but learning blocks to better ourselves.
i believe you have to take risks - to live life to the fullest and make the most of what we have.
because we only live once.

~ my goal of book reading still stands this year haha and so now i have decided to just list all the books iv been reading and read
> The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom
> Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom
> My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult
> Vanishing Acts - Jodi Picoult
> The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
> Deception Point - Dan Brown
> Highway Guitar Rose - Bridget Lowry
> The Pelican Brief - John Grisham
> Adrian Mole: The Wilderness Years - Sue Townsend
> For One Last Day - Mitch Albom
> Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - JK Rowlings
> Bridget Jone's Diary [the first one]
- Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince - JK Rowlings
- Singletini - Amanda Trimble
- Falling Blossom - Peter Pagnamenta and Momoko Williams
- The Deep End of the Ocean - i shall getbak to u lol
- Ugly - Constance Briscoe
- Simply Irresistible - Rachel Gibson

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