my last serenade.. today.. i promise..


today will be the last day i sit around waiting for him..
i must move on.. iv known it for a while and today is the dayy!


gta stop crying.. stop wishing and hoping that he will come back to me...
i gota move on ..live my life..sigh and be happy again..=)
i can live without him..
i know i can..
im just stubborn and i love him still...
mmm...


yes..it dun mean i will stop loving him..
u can never forget someone who meant soo much to u..
and ur first love...
i will move on..but he will remain in my heart..i know it..
i cant help it..
but i can help myself from being all sad and shit..
sigh...


i know it took me a while...
well.. iv been thinkn it ..but never really doing it..
that be stubborn serene for u..


anwayys.. my last serenade..
i think by now the whole world knows how much this guy means to me..
lols..sigh and.. if u know my position..u know how hard this is for me too..
mmm sigh..but im trying.. im tryin reli hard.
and the truth hurts...


the truth is..
eventhough i love him soo much..
i will never hav him as my own again...
not now at least....
i gta move on..
no matter how hard it hurts..
and how much i dont want to...


love hurts..
iv learnt it the hardest way possible..
but we gota learn from our mistakes..
how we do it is our own choice..
like i said.. iv learnt it the hard way..
wel im learning it nw...
lols sigh...


we cant hold on soo long.. we might be waiting around forever..
and we cant control anything except for ourselves...
we change every day.. with everything that we face in our life..
and we gota be strong.. no matter waht hits u and what comes in the wayy..sigh
life is full of suprises..but life isnt very long either..
its unexpected, things happen every day..
u face life and death situations every day....
any day could be ur last day..so u gta make the most out of life..
wat u hav now.. wat u do every day...


sigh im learning still.. i know im still young..
and iv faceed many crazy ass problems lately..especially the past two years...
iv experienced many things..
love..
hate..
betrayal..
sigh and everything that iv come across has moulded me into who i am now...
sigh im glad that i met this guy..
he made me realise what love is..how it feels..
to be loved and loved bak in return is the most beautiful feeling u could ever have..
but u cant hav love if one side if giving the loving and the other is not...


like a friend keeps telling me.. love is not a one sided thing.. the key to a relationship or
anything is consent..
without consent..ther is nothing.. u need two people to giv in the same amount and effort into
the relationship.. it cant be done by just one person..sigh


iv been lectured like crazy over the past few months.. over and over again..
sigh iv been listening.. taking action ..loljhaha mmmm. iv tried..
i reli have tried reli hard to move on...sighhh
mmm and yeahh i know taht crying wont get me anywher...
i gta face life as it comes to me..sighh..
cant predict the future..or have everything tat i want...


dreams dont come truue that easily...
that is all a fairy tale..
i gota snap out of it sigh..
im not that young nemore.. i gta grow up lol sighh
my dream to be with him isnt going to come tru..sigh not for now..


sigh...


so from today onwards..i promise ishall move on..
i will try to stop thinkn about him..
live my life as i used to before him...
be happy..
sigh...


life is unpredictable.. it is short... sighh
we gota make the most out of it.. =)
no point moping around.. pourin my eyes out for him...
i shall find me another u...


i wil..


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in•ex•o•ra•ble /ɪnˈɛksərəbəl/
Pronunciation[in-ek-ser-uh-buhl]
–adjective


1. unyielding; unalterable: inexorable truth; inexorable justice.
2. not to be persuaded, moved, or affected by prayers or entreaties: an inexorable
creditor.


lol that what my friend keeps tellin me haah sighh he posted it on his msn nick name for mee
too and told me to look it up lol sighhhs

mmm u cant change how a person feels.. u cant make anyone fall in love with u…
just like genies .. lol..they can grant u three wishes as u please..but they can never make someone fall in love with u…
its not fair..lol sigh
but now I understand… =)

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sighhs..


- dreamer : last serenade.. moving on without u... *^-^*

serenery

i believe that the simple things in life are always the most important
that we should never take the people around us for-granted.
life is never long enough, and is an unexpected journey.
and every obstacle are just life's tests to shape who we are,
that mistakes aren't "mistakes" but learning blocks to better ourselves.
i believe you have to take risks - to live life to the fullest and make the most of what we have.
because we only live once.

~ my goal of book reading still stands this year haha and so now i have decided to just list all the books iv been reading and read
> The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom
> Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom
> My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult
> Vanishing Acts - Jodi Picoult
> The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
> Deception Point - Dan Brown
> Highway Guitar Rose - Bridget Lowry
> The Pelican Brief - John Grisham
> Adrian Mole: The Wilderness Years - Sue Townsend
> For One Last Day - Mitch Albom
> Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - JK Rowlings
> Bridget Jone's Diary [the first one]
- Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince - JK Rowlings
- Singletini - Amanda Trimble
- Falling Blossom - Peter Pagnamenta and Momoko Williams
- The Deep End of the Ocean - i shall getbak to u lol
- Ugly - Constance Briscoe
- Simply Irresistible - Rachel Gibson

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