arghhhhhh sighhhhhhhh

after that blog..which i thinK i posted onli about 20 mins go haha sigh i told myself that i was going to try and study and do my tutes..sigh >_< but bleh ...

im so lost right now..sighh and im reli loosing it again sigh..i need to talk about him hahah sigh wel..i dont need to talk about him..sigh but..i wana hug him and i miss him like fkn shit again sigh >_< arghh *kill me* sighhhs...

i cant stop thinkn about him.. sigh and i dont even know wat the hel im thinkn about sigh..its just him!..i cant help it sigh.. i miss him insanely >_< and its killing meeeeeeeee!! sighhhhhhh arghh =( *tears*

i need to get away sigh..
i cant concentrate for anything..uni and all sigh =/ and exams are closing in on me sighhs..theres alredi assignments and tests to be ddone tooo sigh and im soo not ther yet =( >_< im reli not coping atm sigh.. im falling to pieces..

sighhh

i dont know how to explain everything..sigh i cant explain everything sigh.. so u all will just think that im crazy and stoopid coz i cant get over him..sigh..its reli not that easy sigh..

it just feels so bleh without him sigh =/ icant take it.. i cant live a day witout him.. i need to keep myself soo busy..but that just means spending money.. sigh..more like throwing money out the window! and i dont even work so ic ant do that sigh =(

and i cant keep myself busy all the time..coz other people hav their lives too sighh and i gota study! sigh..but i cant concentrate!! sighh *tears* my life is reli one big huge mess atm sighhhhh.. i need to put it all bak together but argh its soo hard sighs and i reli cant do it alone sigh =(

i thinK iv become wayy too dependent on ger sigh.. it just feels soo.. weirdo not to be with him nemore sigh.. every single day..i feel like..soemthink is missing..sigh.. coz i used to be with him every dayy and i would hav someone to talk to on the fone every nigt.. he would say that he loves me sigh and wen i see him i can just hugg him and hold his hand sigh..but now..its soo..bLEH =( *tears*

when we see each other..sighs its soo akwards.. sigh and all i want to do is just hugg him sigh and never ever let go again sighhh >_< and i wana kiss him *tears*
arghhhhhhhhh

i miss talkn to him on the fone..and hugging him everynight.. sighh especially on cold nights..sighhhhhhh i miss him soo much >_< it hurts every day sighhh and i tri to hidE it sighh but..arghhhhh it hurts even more sometiemes sigh =(

sighhhhhhhhh *tears*
i need to move onnnnnnn arghhhhhh

BUT HOW =( !??!

someone tell me hoW! sigh

sigh stars make my wish come truuuuuuuuuu >_< sighhhh
im loosing hoPe.. in everything that i do now sigh =/

sigh..someone pick me up >_<

- dreamer ( dying )

serenery

i believe that the simple things in life are always the most important
that we should never take the people around us for-granted.
life is never long enough, and is an unexpected journey.
and every obstacle are just life's tests to shape who we are,
that mistakes aren't "mistakes" but learning blocks to better ourselves.
i believe you have to take risks - to live life to the fullest and make the most of what we have.
because we only live once.

~ my goal of book reading still stands this year haha and so now i have decided to just list all the books iv been reading and read
> The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom
> Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom
> My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult
> Vanishing Acts - Jodi Picoult
> The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
> Deception Point - Dan Brown
> Highway Guitar Rose - Bridget Lowry
> The Pelican Brief - John Grisham
> Adrian Mole: The Wilderness Years - Sue Townsend
> For One Last Day - Mitch Albom
> Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - JK Rowlings
> Bridget Jone's Diary [the first one]
- Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince - JK Rowlings
- Singletini - Amanda Trimble
- Falling Blossom - Peter Pagnamenta and Momoko Williams
- The Deep End of the Ocean - i shall getbak to u lol
- Ugly - Constance Briscoe
- Simply Irresistible - Rachel Gibson

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