every beat of my heart

the catch that got away

Thursday, January 10, 2008

♥ 2:42 AM

lol this i forgot about haha..i wrote it a while back as u can see..its ..lol random and about beijing.. written on the night i was leaving.. (last night in beijing..awww) hahah suprisingly i actually started to miss that place..sigh.. although hard to get around and stuff.. i made some very interesting memories and friends there over the three weeks i was there lols..hahaha if only i made friends earlier huh hahaa
anyways here it is..dont laugh.. i would like to say here now..today..that i think im over itlol haha uwl understand later.. it was a liddol crush hahaha =) crushes are fun lols :P

"The Catch that got Away" 30th december 2007

This holiday, my last holiday, in Beijing, i discovered ..nightlife! something that i knew was always there for me..but i never had the chance to go or anyone to go with! (and i still dont)

If only i had found this earlier then i would have never been complaining about coming over here and leaving my friends every christmas and new years for the past three years!!

Hmm, anyways it started to become part of my weekly schedule! lol.. every friday night my brother and i would go out and explore beijings very cheap nightlife..lols..

yes, sad it is.. my brother is the only one i went out with to explore these friday nights lols.. *shakes head* -_- anyways i dont crowd over him and his friends.. im merely a babysitter.. but..lols after a while sometimes i guess it ends up being a bit of my night too lol and i dont wana go home so early hahaha.
kids these days..lol cant party hard nemore lols.. they go home at around 3 to 4ish.. lol people who know me.. hahaha i love dancing the night away. lols and 4 is still earli lol. the night is still young! hahaha.. ok no not that young..but another hour cant hurt anyone ;) lolx

hmmm, so anyways these friday nights became a habit..lol so for the past three fridays iv been in beijing iv been going out..and going to the same bar - puregirl. hmmm...

its a liddol bar in the middle of barstreet.. hmm small.. cheap cheap drinks.. friendly atmosphere ;) lols but fkn dirty..lol for example, the first friday i went there..someone threw up in the middle of the walkway..and they never cleaned it up for a ..very long time.. arghh and the toilet..man dont.. even.. arghh.. toilets in china in general is jus.. ewww full stop lols.. hahaha.. ok this one luckly isnt tooo bad.. (compared to some of the ones iv seen and ..smelt in china lol -_-)

Anyways, overall.. great place..lol if u like the drinks.. the music is average..but the people are fun and friendly.. not random old china men waiting to take advantage of people when they drunk.. but theres alot of international peoples there ^^ very fun! hahahah very very fun! ;) lolx

hmm i made myself a few friends there too -_- lols.. hmm some from england, sweden, canada, france and a few other randoms lols..

But this blog isnt all about the bar.. and the people..its about that one catch that ..unfortunately i cant have.. hmm why cant i have him? what/who is this catch..? lol.. zz that in time i shall reveal.. LOl (Sounding like a tOOol)

hmm, so every friday right.. the first two weeks i just met the same people =) a group of friends travelling and their bro and friends who live in china.. lols. i dont think i should mention any names.. just..coz.. lol

theyr a nice group of guys.. fun to talk to and drink with lol ^^ tequilla sunrises~bottoms up!* lolx hahah hmm but this catch..the last friday out in beijing.. (note: for a very very long time.. =(..) hmm i met him.. man if only i wasnt soo wasted..-_- lols.. and thinkn straight.. sigh.. i was a tad too drunk lol so wen sum serious shit was happening..my mind was just at a blank and i didnt even respond..=/ lolx.. man he must have thought i was a fkn ditx lols -_- hahahaha

o wells, like he also said.. its not like anything could happen coz we both live soo far away..hmm lol.. he was a sweety tho.. i wish i met him two weeks earlier.. fun to dance with, pretty daymn fine lol, mm nice bodaey..hahaha mmmmm.. alot of nice things lol hahaha *sigh* if only he lived in perth.. or if only i met him two weeks earlier.. and i was stayn for longer! arghhh IF ONLY! lols =X

hmm maybe u thinkn im a tad crazy since i onli just met him lols.. hahah zz mm i think i may be over reacting a liddol too haha but.. for now..he was a great catch.. and i think still after a while..iwl rmber him lols.. reli sweet guy..mmm tall.. body..arghh body lols..hahah the way he jus..does things..talks..lol ahh*drools* i wish hahaha

and man it sukd soo bad that my bro was there too and i had to babysit him (yes lah "bbysit") lols -_- ahahah his friends all left about 4ish.. lol i didnt really pay too much attention that night coz i was caught up with the "fish of the night" LOL =/ hahaha (sry im getting really lame..and this is such a tarded blog lols..)

BUT MAN SIGH! HAhaAHha~

it sucks man ..coz i doubt we will ever meet each other ever again lols.. =/ coz we live on the different sides of the globe.. and nowun in their right mind would fly the other side of the world for a girl or guy lol..specialy one that they only met once lols.. hahahahaha

no dw..im not going that crazy..i know that im talkin retard crazy talk atm lol.. mm but..im just saying..that it would be nice.. very very nice if i could have him or even hav a chance of gettin to know him better in person and seeing him again..lol sigh.. *if only* hahaha -_-

yes..dream on serene lol =/ i hear u.. lol zz

hmmm.. oh well..memories.. i got photo proof haha ^^ and facebook too =)

beijing isnt that bad after all.. lol next time, when i get back i know where to go! hahah and who to call lols ;) but next time hopefully iwl have friends with me so brother dear doesnt need to tag along..lols hahaha

hmm u know what else i need.. zz
i need a reli good girl friend..=/ hahaha sigh.. if u guys know me well enough..i think u know my history with having really close chica friends.. zz.. and i myself keep coming to the conclusion, and it keeps gettin backed up.. hmm chics.. they can be backstabbing bitches!!! lolx hahaha.. yes imma girl myself.. but its true.. girls are bitches by nature.. even if they dont show it..deep down inside.. lols.. bitch -_-

hmmm why i need a really good chic friend.. its not like i dont have one currently.. i have a few really close gal friends =) and ilove em dont get me wrong ^^ but ...sometimes they are too innocent lol. or jus.. i duno..

me.. hmm me.. lol.. im .. iv been and done alot? (NOT TO SOUND DODGE omg) but i mean.. iv experienced many things.. eventhough im still a teen..my teenaged life..lol has been very hectic.. trust me.. zzz alcohol, drugs, boys, love, bakstabbing, dodgeness (lol) etc etc..

imma bit of a rebel (OH and im not sayin iv done all of the above.. they are experiences im talking about lols.. hahaha not necessarily me being a party directly involved lah lols X_x) hmmm.. iv done the whole sneaking out thing.. underaged clubbing and drinkn etc.. lol. u know, when i turned `18.. clubbing and drinkn to me was like..old school hahaha..and i got sick of clubbing..and didnt hit the clubs too often when i was 18 lol =/ hahaha.. coz i started early at about 15ish? lol..

hmm my friends i gues..lol the ones that i chose to hang around with bak in year 11ish.. mm hahah theyr great guys lol but coz of them i was a liddol rebel lols and did everything underaged hahaha.. but!! underaged clubbing, drinkn etc.. more fun and exciting!! lol coz.. its the thought of gettin caught..and doing something that you shouldnt be doing! lols hahaha.. adrenaline rush!? lols.. the feeling of nearly gettin caught.. gets ur heart beating lols.. good times!! hahahah and them times are still rollin baby! hahah

hahaha anyways, wat was i on about..? hahaha.. oh yeah, friends. being gals..! lols.. hmm all those who know me, know that i love my boys! hahaha.. as friends and all lols^^ i get along better with them all and im known as a "boys gal" lol.. and im proud of it! i dont care if gals talk behind my back coz i hang out with too many guys and they think imma....but im noT!!! zz

like i sed earlier, iv had...reli shitty experiences with having really close galfriends.. i remember one tried to turn the whole year against me..and accused me of shit i didnt do.. zz shared our secrets to heaps of people.. MAJOR BACKSTABBING people lols =/ zzz

then later another one.. we went through alot .. zz and she fkd me over not once..but twice!! zz.. being a bitch.. sayn shit about me behind my back... going bitter and cold at me for no reason.. zz hmmm... bleh! and a few more.. sigh.. you would think that if uv known a person for SOOO many years.. and ther nothing ever been wrong between u two.. friends for ages, go to same school.. u would think that they wouldnt suddenly turn on u and bitch along with the rest.. zzz arghh

bleh argh o wels, i dont care! sigh.. that was a while ago.. and altho i didnt really do shit about it.. we are still "ok" and we talk still..still friends.. juust not close nemore.. and since highschool i havnt really been close to any gals..at all lol -_- iv stuck with my boys and met more boys! lols and it seems like most of the time..its a group of guys and then me! hahaha =)

bleh but its times like these i need a galfriend lol.. i mean, u cant tell u guy friends about the boys u meet at random clubs, bars.. and u cant go out with them and they help u pick up? hahaha.. thats why its called a "girls night out" lol.. coz all gals go out..single.. hav fun..party..dance..drink.. find guys.. everyone together chek them out lol.. choose who they want..hahah help each other out to get their number.. LOls hahahah *ahh i watch too many movies LOL*

hahaha ANYWAYS.. sighhh i wana share my last fri night experience in beijing with someone.. arghh but nowun to tell lol.. if i simply tell my guy friends they will jus .. they wont understand lol. they cant respond. zz blehhh
i dont know if anyone knows what im on about..lol argh sigh hahaha.. but yeah. zzz.. bleh

i should shuttup.. i keep rambling lol.. from just talkin about my catch i end up talking about galfriends and bitching lol -_- hahahah..

arghh sigh, im leavin tmro.. my bros pretty cut.. hes gona miss it here in beijing.. i think im startin to miss it too.. wev been here for three years.. i mean, if i were in his position.. havin to leave my friends and all.. after three years..and leaving my gf/bf.. hmm i wouldnt be able to handle it.. i would be crying right now.. lol and not at home probably lols.. prob wont be home for many nights in a row lols hahaha =/ out saying goodbye to everyone and spending heaps of time with my gal/boy sigh

today, phil came over .. hmm imma miss that kid.. hes a good guy.. leos friend.. iv seen him quite a bit this time round coz he comes drinkn with us lols hahaha.. phil phil phil lols =) hes a sweety lols ^^ iwl miss him.. and iwl miss wen too.. pretty gal..loves to dance..music..alcohol LoL a liddol version of me..hahah sex drugs and rock and roll baby!! hahahah ;P

hahahaha sighhh yeah phil.. iwl miss him.. when he left today i got a hug too lol..haha aww he reli is a sweeety hahaha eventho hes not reli my friend..but leos.. i alredi miss him haha -_- sigh i can only imagine how leo feels *sigh poor kid* right now hes on the phone with his gal.. sighh.. shes a great one too that one.. i met her on my second night out in beijing.. shes gorgeous.. cute hahah short..lols australian LOL ozzie ozzie ozzie OI OI OI!!! lols =D

aww man, this past three weeks here in beijing have been fun! =) lookin forward for every fridays lols hahaha.. goood times =) met some really fun people ;) that i have on facebook now too!! hahah and who live all over the place..lols and many photos hahahaha photos are always gooood XD hehehe.. memories that last foreverss!! ^_^"

i wish that we could spend new years here tho..it would be great.. party party partyy hahah..coz now i got friends here =D lols hahaha zz but no.. we gona be in malaysia.. wit no friends =/ lol hahaha.. o wels.. zz thats wat iv been doing for the past 3 years now..X_X sigh

thats life for u.. international life..lols. hahaha no not really.. that we shall get into another day..lols.. i already planned to talk about that..lol *doot doot doot* hahahahha

rmber how i made another blog to do with just travels and holidays =D heheh hmmmmmm shuttup serene..-_-

im going to watch american gangsta now ^^

man u shud see this house now..lol.. all empty -_- lukily theres still a tv hahaha.. unfortunately no net tho *boooo* iv tried a few times.. sigh no luck! =( so i shall post this another time when i do finally get internet =)

but for now.. til we meet again..

good bye beijing.

good bye my catch. lol

good bye pure girl.

good bye phil, wen, kirti, chris, shakar haha (and the rest)

good bye cold cold winters in beijing

good bye bowling in lido hotel =(

good bye apartment

good bye cheap ass clothing and dvds/cds

good bye 11 hour plane trips to china.. =) LOl

mmmm til we meet again!

happy new year 2008 everyone *^_^* may u all have a great year ahead !! and all ur wishes and dreams come truee =)

adios!

- dreamer (*smiles*)