"Happily Ever After" (Monday 15 December, 2008 @ 3.38am)

It starts with true love's first kiss.

I want my happily ever after dream come true. To meet the prince of my dreams. That one who would make my heart flutter and skip a beat. Like in the fairytales, when a simple girl who sings and talks to birds and chipmunks every morning, suddenly falls out of a tree and falls into the arms of her Prince Charming who rescues her from her fall.

Happily ever after. If only it were true in reality. To not have to search of look for the one of your dreams, because if it's fate and meant to be it will just come true. He will appear out of nowhere and when you both lock eyes with one another you instantly know that he is the one. The one that you are going to spend the rest of your life with. The one who will make you happy for ever and ever.

Prince Charming where are you. I used to believe in fairy tales, in happily ever after. For that one to love me forever and never break my heart. But in reality, life is harsh and love is pain. I still would like to believe that it is fate. That I don't need to search or look for that one, and that he will come find me when the time is right.

Sometimes I just wish that it would hurry up. That my prince will come sweep me off my feet. For someone to look me in the eyes and tell me from the bottom of their heart that he does love me and that he will always love me forever and a day. To give me my perfect happily ever after. To be mine and only mine. My prince for live. My prince who will love me and only me.

I've been through alot of hurt and I've met alot of people and been through enough that I have started to loose faith. It hurts me to think that such a beautiful fairytale doesn't exist in reality. I think about when we were young. Little girls dressed up in cute snow white princess dresses with glittery pink tiaras sitting on their heads. Dancing around and smiling. Innocent hearts believing in love at first sight. Knowing that one day when the time comes, their Prince Charming will catch them when they fall and that will be the day when they fall in love and will love that man for the rest of their lives.

I don't want to ruin this blog but in reality... reality itself is painful. So much innocence has been ruined. I used to be a romantic, to write poems and sing love songs. But now, I havn't written a love letter or poem in over two years. It hurts. The only poems I have written have been sad break up poems. Where I get my heart broken or I am waiting and wishing for that guy I used to think was "the one" to come back and love me again.

Love shouldn't be like that. I wish it was like the fairytale. I wish that I could believe again. To be in a fairytale. To wake up every morning smiling to a sunny day and beautiful blue birds chirping on my window sill. To sing and be so hopeful and happy every day. To have no worries and no doubts. To know that he is out there somewhere and he is looking for me. That there's always hope and always love.

All around me, my friends have all been finding their other half. They have all got someone to call their own. Someone's somebody. To be loved. To be held and hugged every night. Someone to wake up to and smile every morning. I think it is really getting to me. I've been through alot this year. It has been crazy. This year 2008. I've learnt alot and reality has really hit me. The fairytale has been tainted and my beliefs faded.

I wish that my prince will soon come to me. And I will be able to feel how I used to feel. To love and be loved in return. Hopefully he will be my prince forever. My prince who will grant me my happily ever after.

It is so much easier to be a kid again. To be happy and not know the harsh reality of what they call life. To dance around in a pretty little dress with all the dreams and hopes in my mind. With not a worry or doubt, no fear and no pain. To keep the fairytale alive. Saving my very first kiss for the one of my life. For my Prince Charming.

True love's first kiss to begin to my happily ever after.

serenery

i believe that the simple things in life are always the most important
that we should never take the people around us for-granted.
life is never long enough, and is an unexpected journey.
and every obstacle are just life's tests to shape who we are,
that mistakes aren't "mistakes" but learning blocks to better ourselves.
i believe you have to take risks - to live life to the fullest and make the most of what we have.
because we only live once.

~ my goal of book reading still stands this year haha and so now i have decided to just list all the books iv been reading and read
> The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom
> Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom
> My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult
> Vanishing Acts - Jodi Picoult
> The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
> Deception Point - Dan Brown
> Highway Guitar Rose - Bridget Lowry
> The Pelican Brief - John Grisham
> Adrian Mole: The Wilderness Years - Sue Townsend
> For One Last Day - Mitch Albom
> Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - JK Rowlings
> Bridget Jone's Diary [the first one]
- Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince - JK Rowlings
- Singletini - Amanda Trimble
- Falling Blossom - Peter Pagnamenta and Momoko Williams
- The Deep End of the Ocean - i shall getbak to u lol
- Ugly - Constance Briscoe
- Simply Irresistible - Rachel Gibson

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