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Saturday, June 05, 2010
♥ 2:10 AM
sigh. i feel so emo, this is stupid. lol. and yes this is about a guy...
but its not the same as any of the other guys that i have mentioned on this epic blog of boy rambles :P haha. *sigh*
this guy... he was different...
he was my perfect guy <3
we made a bubble, which was just so perfect...
just you and me,
our perfect, made up reality
he made me smile, he made me laugh.. he could cook, he loved his family and parents, he was sweet, caring, romantic, funny, lame, dorky!, cute, retarded, totally hot, amazing smile, green eyes, tall, sexy, charming, smart, he loved life, he loved music and he could even dance.. he said what was on his mind, he would tell me that he loved me, tell me that he missed me and cared, that i mattered and that i was amazing :) he.. was.. amazing. :) he really was perfect.
its crazy. spesh if you actually know the whole story. our "relationship" is definately not an ordinary one. :) which.. i dont know, is good and bad.. there are times where i thought that this is just very bad and unhealthy for both of us.. and cant be doing any of us good lol. sigh.. but in the end, he was always there for me when i was down and needed cheering up. or even when iv had a great day, he just made it that little bit more better :) and he wouldnt even have to say a thing... we cud just stare at each other for hours and not say a word.. and just the thought that he was right there beside me made me feel so much better :)
wow i sound like a hel emo who just got dumped! lols... when and if i decide to spil how it all went down etc. you'd lol and be like o.O""""""" ahahaha sigh. really something that you dont do in your every day life...or relationships.. i hope. lol :) which makes him.. and us all the more special <3
he loved for me for me and genuinely loved spending time with me :) it has nothing to do with sex and money. it was all about us. our bare selves (not literally). of course there was a physical thing going on, but because of the circumstances, that had nothing to do with our relationship.. sigh...
he really was.. is my perfect man. :)
and now it sucks so bad, coz he is gone. and its going to be so hard to find a new guy like him.. coz in our bubble, he is the one. the one that i want to end up with in the end. my perfection. i didnt really know it at the time, but now i see it. he was like a fairytale, my dream...
and yes, we all know that dreams come to and end and we must wake up eventually. and that bubbles.. no matter how pretty they are when they glisten in the sunlight, and how peaceful they look when they just float and bounce in the air... in the end, it pops, and the magic is gone.
i knew that our bubble was going to have to pop eventually, but i didnt think that it was going to be this sudden. :(
*oops, this always happens.. i get distracted, or tell someone about what im thinkn on msn and then i lose track of my flow lols.. and then i always end the blog hel random and suddenly.. fails!!*
sigh.
anyways. i miss him already. i hope he comes back soon.
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i believe that the simple things in life are always the most important
that we should never take the people around us for-granted.
life is never long enough, and is an unexpected journey.
and every obstacle are just life's tests to shape who we are,
that mistakes aren't "mistakes" but learning blocks to better ourselves.
i believe you have to take risks - to live life to the fullest and make the most of what we have.
because we only live once.
~ my goal of book reading still stands this year haha and so now i have decided to just list all the books iv been reading and read
> The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom
> Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom
> My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult
> Vanishing Acts - Jodi Picoult
> The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
> Deception Point - Dan Brown
> Highway Guitar Rose - Bridget Lowry
> The Pelican Brief - John Grisham
> Adrian Mole: The Wilderness Years - Sue Townsend
> For One Last Day - Mitch Albom
> Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - JK Rowlings
> Bridget Jone's Diary [the first one]
- Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince - JK Rowlings
- Singletini - Amanda Trimble
- Falling Blossom - Peter Pagnamenta and Momoko Williams
- The Deep End of the Ocean - i shall getbak to u lol
- Ugly - Constance Briscoe
- Simply Irresistible - Rachel Gibson

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