i miss you more than ever now.
i realised this week how much i needed you, and as selfish as this is going to sound, i realised why i needed you. all the things iv sed about love and the perfect guy, still stands the same, dnt get me wrong.. but what iv realised this week is you are my escape! (i know iv already sed this before; you being my bubble and all)

but the past few weeks have really been hell. and i havnt been myself. sigh. all this stress, lack of sleep etc. and just everything has been getting to me. more so when you suddenly disappeared. *sigh*

not to sound over dramatic or anything, but my whole world seemed to have jsut fallen to pieces when you walked away. sigh. really! im on the verge of poverty (lol okay that one is a bit extreme talk), but im down to one job which is really only one shift a week, no study, no family still, friends are being shitty, still no bf, and no you.. and you my dear, you were my escape, my "bf" in our bubble - you are my break from reality, my escape.

and you have been this escape for me for 4 months now.. and with you suddenly gone, itjust feels soo weird and so wrong, like something is missing. and wen things go wrong, and i get angry, or i have a bad day. i dont have you anymore.. i cant run to you and forget about my shitty day and you aren't there to tell me things to cheer me up and smile.. sigh

i know it sounds all a bit selfish, that i want you as my escape, as my distraction. but its not just that you know that right b. <3 sigh.

but its true.. im losing it. the past few weeks.. i duno wats wrong with me but i am just so over it.. it being.. everything.. sigh life. friends. relationships. work. etc.. omg.. soooo over it! i really jsut feel like leaving and running away for a while.. to get away from everything.. sigh to have some time on my own or just away from perth i guess. lol.. sigh...

i want something new. i want something different. i dont want to have to deal wth the same stupid shit from the same stupid people every day. argh. not until they grow up and man up. im really over their shit. soo soo soooooooo over it. lol sigh..

i miss you j.

i wish that you would come back soon and bring back some stability in my life.. or really, just give me back my sanity. lol. it was nice having you around. you were my smething different, my escape from my real life.. its nice to talk to someone that isnt associated with the life that i lead every day. so we dont hav to talk about the same boring shit about the same people. its always different and unexpected with you. a suprise :) a nice one. i loved it. sigh. i love you.

please come back soon. i miss you.

- dreamer (dreams)

serenery

i believe that the simple things in life are always the most important
that we should never take the people around us for-granted.
life is never long enough, and is an unexpected journey.
and every obstacle are just life's tests to shape who we are,
that mistakes aren't "mistakes" but learning blocks to better ourselves.
i believe you have to take risks - to live life to the fullest and make the most of what we have.
because we only live once.

~ my goal of book reading still stands this year haha and so now i have decided to just list all the books iv been reading and read
> The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom
> Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom
> My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult
> Vanishing Acts - Jodi Picoult
> The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
> Deception Point - Dan Brown
> Highway Guitar Rose - Bridget Lowry
> The Pelican Brief - John Grisham
> Adrian Mole: The Wilderness Years - Sue Townsend
> For One Last Day - Mitch Albom
> Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - JK Rowlings
> Bridget Jone's Diary [the first one]
- Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince - JK Rowlings
- Singletini - Amanda Trimble
- Falling Blossom - Peter Pagnamenta and Momoko Williams
- The Deep End of the Ocean - i shall getbak to u lol
- Ugly - Constance Briscoe
- Simply Irresistible - Rachel Gibson

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