so its getting a little bit stupid now huh?
sigh, it sucks a bit. i find myself coming home from the clubs and the first thing i do is log onto gchat, hoping that today will be the day i finally get to talk to you again. but every morning, its the same. your name is not highlighted green, and you are not there. what am i do to. sigh.

yes it is very stupid considering you technically werent mine. i cudnt touch you, hug, kiss or hold you. sigh. but i am still hooked on you j. and i miss you so much sometimes.

im used to coming home at 5am from the clubs or a big night and i know that you would be there waiting for me :) all id have to do is drop you a msg or poke you. and ud be on like that *click* :) and you would always make me smile! :)

you're like a drug that i cant get over. an addiction. now im suffering from withdrawl symtoms. sigh. i want you back j. come back please. you always seem to make things better.

sigh.

gosh i sound so emo. =/ i been feeling very weird since last night..

i might also add, on a more positive and happy note: GODSKITCHEN was last night and man oh man it was pretty damn good! the line up was definately boss! roger shah, markus schulz and gareth emery <3 very big names of progressive trance, taking us to places we never been before.... hahahaha no not really, but man it was seriously some good trance beats all night :D

but yeah, i think maybe right now i am suffering from post party depression. this always happens after a huge rave or festival.. sigh.. the hype.. then the event.. the epicness.. and then the come down :'( which sometimes takes a long time. lol. hahaha.

ahhh.. sigh, last night was jsut goood. the music was seriously great! and everything was happy dayze :) maybe missing a few variables... hrmm. but even so, it was a good night :) one to rmber for sho! heheh :)

but going home alone.. makes thins sad sometimes. u rmber the times where.. things were different. and even witout physical company, there was always you b. and you made it all worth while. :) wud top my night and id fall aslp next to you :) ahh sigh *love*

come back soon j. you're dearly missed. and i know that i shud get over you.. drugs are obviously bad for you. hahah spesh when youre hooked like i am. argh. that.. is not good.. hahaha. but in slight moderation.. cant be too bad right?
*excuses* hahaha..

ahh time will tell.. ~~

- dreamer (missed out the england v USA soccer game. *devo* - must wake up tmro to watch the replay and cut myself off the world so the score wont be ruined for me!!! lols)

(also, obvi (LOL sigh), missing you j.e.j.)

x

serenery

i believe that the simple things in life are always the most important
that we should never take the people around us for-granted.
life is never long enough, and is an unexpected journey.
and every obstacle are just life's tests to shape who we are,
that mistakes aren't "mistakes" but learning blocks to better ourselves.
i believe you have to take risks - to live life to the fullest and make the most of what we have.
because we only live once.

~ my goal of book reading still stands this year haha and so now i have decided to just list all the books iv been reading and read
> The Five People You Meet in Heaven - Mitch Albom
> Tuesdays with Morrie - Mitch Albom
> My Sister's Keeper - Jodi Picoult
> Vanishing Acts - Jodi Picoult
> The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
> Deception Point - Dan Brown
> Highway Guitar Rose - Bridget Lowry
> The Pelican Brief - John Grisham
> Adrian Mole: The Wilderness Years - Sue Townsend
> For One Last Day - Mitch Albom
> Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix - JK Rowlings
> Bridget Jone's Diary [the first one]
- Harry Potter and the Half Blooded Prince - JK Rowlings
- Singletini - Amanda Trimble
- Falling Blossom - Peter Pagnamenta and Momoko Williams
- The Deep End of the Ocean - i shall getbak to u lol
- Ugly - Constance Briscoe
- Simply Irresistible - Rachel Gibson

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